𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒆'𝒔 𝒘𝒂𝒓

𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞

tw:violence

Lena's pov:

some time had passed and we became more and more close everyday.

also tonight charlotte woke up for her nightmares, even if it was more difficult to calm her down, because she was shaking from head to toe, i managed to get her to breathe slowly and go back to sleep.
the following morning I woke up and prepared breakfast and after a while charlotte joined me too "good morning" she said smiling "you don't need to do all this for me your hospitality is already so much" she scratch her eyes "don't be silly" I kissed her cheek "sit down and eat, don't worry" I sat across from her "sorry about last night again" she said "do you want to talk about it?" I told her trying to make a eye contact she struggled to make "I think so, you need to know" now she finally looked me in the eyes then she turned and I had the time to look her soft features and her delicate profile

she began to talk "when I was there in France, everything was different, I knew many people and had various contacts but I wasn't happy. Being part of this special service I saw many lives passing in front of me and many lives ending" she sighed, I put my hand on hers to make her go on with the story "first with Françoise, a young woman who was killed by the nazis because of me, then some friends of Julian, the one who came to talk to me yesterday. while they were about to die i was somewhere else and on my way back I almost risked my life because of Julian, he almost killed me and then." she let a tear fall and looked into my eyes

"The children, it was as if they were mine, they lived with their grandfather and they didn't have parents, I took care of them when I wasn't working and one day they took them away from me. I was never able to see them again" she burst into tears, I got up from my chair and walked over to the other side of the table where she was sitting, I knelt on the floor and hugged her, she held my head in her lap as she slowly caught her breath.
"thank you" I said "thank you for telling me about what bothers you" I hugged her and she smiled.
"Lena?" she whispered in my ear "can I ask you a question now?" I nod
"what's that scar on your back, how did you do it?" the question I didn't want to receive

Charlotte's pov:

I probably shouldn't have asked, her gaze faded, maybe the fault is of one of the men she's sleeping with "I know what you're thinking charlotte, it has nothing to do with the men I work for" she looked at me, I let her sit on my lap to keep her closer to me "it all happened when i was 16 so about ten years ago, i was at home, like a simple little girl studying and reading, i always had the chance to study luckily. money have never been lacking in the family but I lacked affection, no one listened to me and no one asked me even once 'how are you?', I never had a good relationship with my parents, especially with my mother" she said all in one breath without stopping, I then did as she did and took both her hands in mine "it all happened one day, I had just come home from school and I found my mother drunk as she often was, I told her to go to sleep and rest but she she didn't take it well, she had already been angry for some time because instead of working I decided to study and I don't know how it happened, as I was going up the stairs, she threw a glass bottle at me and it all happened like this, a woman in the neighborhood helped me and took me to the hospital, if she hadn't been there I wouldn't be here now" she smiled sadly and let a tear fall which I wiped away with my thumb, she was so vulnerable and precious, I have to protect her at any cost.
she threw herself into my arms, I love her hugs, they are so comfortable and sweet and even in the sad moments they made me smile.
"Thanks for letting me know" I said looking at her as my eyes began to fill with tears.

I don't know if they were tears of sadness for the moment or for the joy of having a beautiful and sweet woman like Lena with me.
she wiped away her tears and wiped them off for me too "now that the sad moment is over how about a bath?" I smiled for her change of mood, I nodded "only if you come with me" I told her and she smiled.
"I bet I'll get there first" she said and then started running into the room, I chased her and grabbed her by the hips, tickling her, she started screaming and wriggling in my arms "if you want me to stop I want a kiss" I said continuing "okay okay charlotte, let me go now please" I let her go and she sighed and kissed me on the lips "now we can go" I said stroking her back and heading with her to the bathroom. she filled the tub and I took what was needed "love" she called me, how nice when she calls me like that "can I wash your hair?" she smiled and i nodded "whatever you want sweetheart" i stroked her shoulder before starting to slowly undress and sit in the tub, sitting between lena's legs and letting her delicate hands wash my hair, i love her more every second "i think after this shampoo your hair will finally be blonde again" she said removing the soap with hot water and giving me a kiss on the back of my head.
I dropped into her arms and we were there for at least 30 minutes.
I wanted her to kiss me and touch my body with her hands but probably I'm too old for her and even in this romantic moment I was thinking about how unsuitable I am for her and how much better she could have.
we hear a knock on the door and I immediately turn around to look at her
"don't worry charlotte, I'll get dressed and go" she put a towel around her body and went to the door, I went out but I didn't move, the knocking became more and more aggressive and the moment she opened the door I heard a familiar voice "here you are, filthy bitch, I know what you did to my Dominique how dare you" yelled the voice that turned out to be Julian's "I have no idea who you're talking about" said my poor Lena calmly who had no idea who Dominique was , I should have told her and I hate myself for that, I hear the sound of a slap "besides being a lesbian you're also a liar, burn in hell you ugly whore" he screamed at her loudly and from the bathroom I could hear her sobs, my little Lena, by now I was dressed and I headed out of the bathroom "Julian , what have you done? how dare you" I yelled at him crying and approaching Lena "you're like her too, that's why you didn't want me anymore, but now that I know it you come with me so I'll fix every mistake there is you" he said taking me by the arm "no julian I'm not going anywhere" my eyes started to itch while Lena was crying and I couldn't give her any comfort, I surrendered to her grip

"I'll come back Lena, I promise" she left me slowly waving her hand "I love you charlotte" she yelled as I walked away, I turned to her and whispered "I love you" but I'm sure she couldn't hear it as far as it was.