LOVE or LUST (yoonkook)

you can't fix it(32)

Jungkook fell on the floor with a loud thud too stunned to speak
What namjoon just said made him speechless he couldn't utter a word and just sat on the floor for so long

On the other hand
Namjoon came and suddenly hugged yoongi when tears escaped his eyes

"Namjoon ....wha...what happened? ...why are you crying ?" Asked yoongi patting namjoon's back

"I'm sorry hyung ..... I wasn't there for you ....I'm sorry you had to go through this ..... I'm sorry I should've stopped you then" said namjoon while sobbing

"Stopped him ? ...for what ?" Asked Jin confused
And namjoon told them everything ..... The truth was revealed now ....the cause of jungkook's hate for yoongi

"What ! He did everything because of that ..... I can't believe ..... Was he mad .... How could he go to this point ..... Revenge .....what kind of revenge was it ..... Where is he ..... I'm gonna kill that idiot" said Jin and went to jungkook's room
When he entered he saw jungkook was sitting on the floor hugging his knees

"Are you satisfied now jungkook ?..... I can't believe we're living together for so many years but still you couldn't trust us " said Jin disappointing

"if yoongi hyung was wrong namjoon hyung wouldn't have let him stay in this group" said jimin

"Yoongi hyung could've told us everything you were doing to him but he still chose to save you he knew that if we'd know your monstrous acts we won't forgive you but you still couldn't understand his care for you
He was on the verge of breaking point but still didn't uttered a bad word about you jungkook ....how you couldn't see his love for you " said hobi almost yelling

"I'm sorry hyung ....I'm sorry ....I was out of my mind ....I was blinded by revenge.....I'm a stupid....punish me ..... Please punish me all you want ....I'm ready to take any kind of punishment hyung ..... Please punish me....I don't deserve any mercy.....this monster inside me needs to die ....I can't live with it " said jungkook wiping his tears away

"How can we punish you jungkook it wasn't us who had to go through hell .....it was yoongi hyung ..... He will punish you not us" said namjoon

"Ask for his forgiveness.....fix what you've damaged ..... His heart his soul everything was damaged by you .... Fix it" said taehyung

"Till then don't expect any kind of nice act from any of us ..... The day you gained yoongi hyung's forgiveness we all will forgive you too" said hobi

"I will .....I will do everything to fix it ....I will do my best .....I will" said jungkook

"One more thing jungkook if yoongi hyung couldn't forgive you then you would have to give up
We will stay as a group because we can't kick you out of the group as this matter is just between us but our relationship won't be back to how it used to be....we will act as close we can on screen but off screen we would be strangers" said namjoon walked out of the room followed by the rest of them went leaving jungkook trembling

"I will do it but not only because I want everything back but I want to fix yoongi hyung's wounds I want him to feel happy i Want him to feel safe and secure whenever he sees me whenever he's around me not insecure or scared..... I've ruined everything on my own now I will fix it on my own

"But if I couldn't do it then
I will never show myself in front of them...I will disappear from their lives forever"
Thought jungkook laying on bed staring at the ceiling and his eyes filled with tears