The Black Petals ( Kinnporsche Fan fiction)

Chapter-4

❝ 𝐇𝐞𝐥𝐩 𝐦𝐞, 𝐈'𝐦 𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞
𝐖𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧, 𝐰𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬
𝐊𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐦𝐲 𝐠𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬 𝐟𝐮𝐥𝐥 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭
'𝐂𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐈'𝐦 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭
𝐎𝐧 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭  ❞

As their hate grow deeper

So do the roots in my lungs ,

It's the first time in my life

There is beauty in my pain I can't even be mad

Because it reminds me of them, Every petal that leaves my mouth

Reminds me of their smile, their smell, our memories

And so I bathe in the breathless feeling

The feeling of flowers blooming in my chest

Taking their permanent place For I would rather die a gruesome death

Than live a life where I couldn't see you And maybe when i'm gone they will grieve

But they shall grieve without knowing I took a piece of them with me to the grave

I couldn't even blame them, they were so close to me yet the distance felt like miles

×××

Glancing at kim's balcony, i saw him laughing with Tankhun. It's been long time since he. laughed like this

They both were in suits, I let out a small chuckle seeing Tankhun. He looks so perfect, only if he starts wearing decent clothes he can even beat me with his looks.

Disappointed rushed inside my blood when i saw you both were happy without me. My presence didn't mattered

Vines stretched my lungs,

Making me breathless. Beautiful black flowers that I've always adored, Now continuously dropping from my mouth.

Crimson liquid puddled up in my hand, Still desperately gasping. A mix of bitterness and sweetness, That is what a piteous person like me feels.

A sweet beginning with a bitter ending. You can say that. Before the last petal falls out, Can I at least gather them all and give them to you? As a token of my unspoken, I care for you

×××

Kinn feels like throwing up.

He stands up quickly and rushes to the bathroom inside his room, earning few stares and panicked reaction from his bodyguards. Kinn ignores it and enter into his room, throwing up dozens of Black petals right away

kinn shudders and a unexpected sob escapes him. He covers his mouth with his hand and pulls his legs up to his chest, willing his heart to slow down.

The door to the bedroom opens and kinn tenses, pressing himself against the wall of the room

××××

Kinn Pov

There i heard a knock on my door , i panicked at thought of someone entering
Looking at the mess i created, there was a puddle of flowers soaked in blood thrown up on bed

"Long Time no see, my dear cousin",

I heard the voice and suddenly i felt the air knocked out of my Lungs

" Leave Vegas", i spat trying to sound as rude as possible yet my voice came with a crack and vulnerable

"kinn, are you cheating on Porsche",? Vegas said raising his one eyebrow

" What are-

" KINN WHAT THE FUCK",

i turned around and saw Porsche standing on the door , looking at me with his horrified and pale face. Pete standing beside him, giving me disappointed look

I couldn't muster up enough courage to speak, how stupid would it feel when they will come to know I'm dying because of my brothers unconditional hate for me

"How can you fall in Love with someone else, after whatever shit you and Porsche went through kinn", i flinched at sudden harsh words thrown by pete

Not even surprised when he addressed me by my name

The misunderstanding seed was born, it was planted and watered by me

Now it's time for face the consequences

Porsche's posture stiffening suddenly
Flinching .

A shocked, deeply pained look on his face

He closed his eyes while lowering one's head ,Poking a tongue against his cheek while exhaling

A deliberate, angry shaking of the head, with the mouth forming a round “O”

Letting out a forceful breath
Difficulty forming words immediately

"i did everything kinn, everything. Yet i was never enough for you", he said in such a small voice breaking my heart

" N.. No ", i tried to explained, yet i couldn't. There were no words forming. The itch i felt in my throat was unbearable.

I coughed out a few petals as they all look at me with shocked, anger
and.... sadness?

I saw  Porsche eyes wandering around and my breath hitched. I saw him going to the night stand and I knew what he was looking for

I ran to Hold his wrist, there i saw him holding a gun to his chest

"no Porsche please", i begged him yet his eyes were filled with determination, sadness and anger

Author Pov

Porsche leveled the revolver at his own chest, his fingers quaking as he felt the cold metal grow increasingly heavy with the passing second. He spoke

"I wish i was ever good enough for you, kinn",  tears were rolling down Porsche face.

Kinn panicked, things were supposed to. go this way.

" I always loved you Porsche "

Kinn said, his voice pleading . There was honesty in his voice making Porsche confused for a second. Taking the chance, kinn grab Porsche hands trying to snatch the gun but Porsche struggling wasn't helping

With a breath and a blink of an eye, Porsche didn’t even feel his finger twitch on the trigger. The shot was muffled, as though the sound traveled through rooms to his ears. He could only watch, still, as the other man stumbled back and stared down at the red blossoming at his chest, before he collapsed and the gun slowly clattered to the floor.

"KINN"

We are getting Brothers Bonding in next chapter! haha

Followed with Angst and Emotional comfort.

Stay Tuned!

I might unpublish this chapter. It Kinda seems dramatic to me , what are your reviews?