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16:33 pm | June 9th |LA, Horizon Plaza|
I struggled as i held two bags full of clothes and in my other hand Brynns cinnamon coated pretzel, that i would sneakily take bites of when her back was turned .
"Cmon let's go over there , Julian loves Louis Vuitton" Brynn exclaimed as we walked across the mall to the store .
Julian's birthday was coming up so Brynn decided to leave Devyn with him and ask me to go to the mall with her to pick him out a gift.
We'd been in a hundred stores already but she couldn't find the perfect thing and with her being seven months pregnant- it was taking even longer to get around.
We walked past the Cartier store on our way down and as we were walking past , something caught Brynns eyes causing her to stop in her tracks.
"Oh my Goddddd Nova!" she practically screamed as she walked into the store .
I followed after her with a small sigh , my feet were killing me . This was giving me flashbacks to my highschool years , Brynn was always the popular one out of the both of us.
Nova pulled my sister into a hug before they both swung from side to side "Brynn , i haven't seen you in so long .. where's your son?" she asked .
They chatted away for a while , laughing and joking as i stood by the register where the bracelets were .
I looked over them as the diamonds twinkled under the dim light inside the store , i had always loved the way the Cartier bracelets looked.
I kept looking before my browsing was interrupted by the sound of a familiar voice "Ight so they said that the ring you picked out was only in sizes 2-5-" I turned around to see a surprised looking Mizani.
His face fell , like he had seen a ghost "Kam.." he started .
I frowned as i looked between him and Nova .. they were here together.
"So this is why you haven't been answering my calls for the past few days ?" i asked as a feeling of realization washed over me .
His expression contorted into one of regret "Ma-" i put up my hand to stop him from talking "I don't even wanna hear what you have to say , i get it now" i cut him off and walked out of the store.
My eyes stung with tears as i speed walked to the parking lot , trying my hardest not to let these strangers see me crying in public.
I felt so confused , i thought we were really starting to become more than just friends that kiss .
He was there for me throughout the time i was grieving , for fucks sake he was the person i chose to call after finding out my best friend died.
Not my sister , not my mom .. him.
Just for him to just throw that all in my face , just for it all to be some kinda game .
I'm sitting at home constantly thinking about him , ready to settle down and actually commit for once , i thought i really found someone real this time .
But i was wrong , he was there with Nova in Cartier looking for rings .
A fucking supermodel and the son to LA's most loved power couple - and then there was me the assistant director of a Trading company .
I was nothing special , i don't know why i allowed myself to fantasies about me and him together even for a while .
I climbed into the passengers side of the car before slamming the door shut , opening up the floodgates .
I brought my hands up to my face and began to sob uncontrollably.
i don't know why i was crying - i know that the whole situation wasn't that serious but everything is happening all at once .
The fact that Zenia's dead is adding salt to the wound , i know exactly what she would've said if she was still here .
__________________________ "Tighten up and stop crying , fuck that nigga if he wanna play you then let him because you know and i know that you're a beautiful, amazing person so it's fine .. in the long run he just playing himself" __________________________
She was the best at giving advice , it could be harsh but in the grand scheme of things it was always exactly what you needed to hear .
I miss her so much and Mizani knew how hard it was for me when she died , i trusted him .. he let me trust him just to do this . I opened up to him and allowed myself to be vulnerable just for him to turn around and do this.
I couldn't forgive him for this , i wouldn't forgive him for this .
Sniffling , i wiped the tears off of my face and the snot from my nose before looking in the rear view to make sure i didn't look completely terrible .
The car light turned on again as Brynn slipped into the drivers seat .
We sat in silence for a few seconds before she broke it "It's his loss Kam , you can do better.. you deserve better " she stated before starting up the car and pulling out the parking lot.
One thing about Brynn was that she was blunt when she wanted to be , even though it can come off as cold , it was her way of being truthful.
She had always been that was even when we were younger , it was comforting in a way , the way she spoke made whatever she said seem even more sincere .
I sniffled one last time before resting my head on the window , watching the scenery go by as she pulled away from the mall and down the highway.
"You feeling some wingstop ..?" she asked , briefly looking between me and the road "Lemon pepperrrr , Mango habaneroo and some cajun corn" she sung causing me to crack a small smile.
"Yeah sure" i said gently as she smile , bringing her hand over to mine , giving it a small squeeze.
She drove towards the nearest wing stop so we could pick up some food .
Even though i was kinda excited for the cajun corn my mind still wandered .
Brynn's word's constantly playing on repeat in my head "you can do better.. you deserve better" .. she was right.
