The Other Side

32~The End

"Why do i have to be the one to relax and to do shit if that nigga don't listen anyway?! You asked me not to and because I love you I didn't and it got my fucking brother killed Cordell! Itrez is fucking dead and he's never coming back and I know he's having a good old time with his friends and shit while I'm sitting here contemplating on how I want my fucking suicide to go! That nigga has taken everything to me and because you want him alive he is! Because I love you more than anything so I listened to you. No more murder because it won't bring anybody back right? But it'll only take away another person and now me! Yet when you asked that nigga to fall back if he really loved you what did he do baby?! He killed my other brother for no reason. N-No reason man because that nigga don't love you like I love you. He's always tryna talk about don't do this and do that if you really love to brother yet his brother asked him to do one thing and he made loopholes and shit!" He spoke crying as he leaned on me.

"That nigga doesn't deserve a second chance and I can't be the one to kill him because I can't do that to you. I can't. Even now it's like I don't even WANT to pull that trigger on him because I'll hurt you. That's why I ran before I didn't wanna hurt anyone and that's all I've been fucking doing. Everything around me turns to shit and everything that happened even since my mom when I was little was my fault. I'm why she started using and then shit just...I'm just...you deserve better and I know you love yo brother so if you have to choose him over me then just do it. I'll understand it if you do. I wanna just leave, but there no way we can get the house this soon. I don't know what to do. Just let that nigga kill me when he comes? Death doesn't sound so and, but I know it'll hurt you and you my only reason for living right now. I know I still have Nori too, but she's gone to New York with her girl starting her life doing shit she loves. She has a future with friends and family and shít. I don't even have any goals or dreams. I don't have a certain job I want or career. I don't wanna do shit with my life, but move,"

"You have goals and dreams and I'm somehow apart of them even though I don't have shít going on for me. I'm not on the same level as you and I think about that a lot too. It's a lot to deal with and you such a forgiving person that I see you starting to change me too. It's just...I feel like yo brother can't be saved. He's not gonna change man and he's gonna come for me and you. You think that he won't betray you after finding out what he did and how he's been acting? He's crazy baby and if that nigga hurts you imma lose my shít. You want me to be this mister nice guy Aight bet, but your brother is coming for me. Whether he said he wasn't or what. You said you were gonna go talk to him today? Don't. If you do though which I know you will because you love him and you want him to do a turn around, just...be careful and make sure you watch yo surroundings. I can't lose you too," he spoke finishing up before laying his head back down and wrapping his arms around me.

"I love you Cordell. You all I got," he spoke sadly as I sighed nodded my head.

I gotta protect him. Time to go see my brother.
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Cévon P.O.V
"Please be safe man. Call me and please, please be safe. Come back home to me baby. I need you to come back home. Maybe I should go wit-,"

"No that's not a good idea. Just stay here and start putting furniture in a cart for the house or better yet. Get some rest. You haven't been sleeping as much lately and I think you need some rest my baby. Go getchu some sleep and I'll be back later. By the time you wake up I'll be home. Go to sleep. I love you and I'll be back," he spoke making me sigh.

"Can't you just stay here?" I asked him feeling worried. 

"Remember that phone call I got? Novian wants me to take him toy he airport. I gave him some of my money and he bought a ticket outta here and found a good culinary school. I'm seeing him off and I was just gonna stop by on my way back home to see Cortlen...I just wanna...have a little talk," he spoke making me look at him confused.