what does a "good day" look like to you?
yesterday I told a friend
that I had a good day
because I managed to get out of bed
and take a shower
that's not a good day, she said
that's normal
I told her that I had a good day
because I went outside
and sat in the sun for an hour
simply existing in the glow of the morning
that's not a good day, she said
that's normal
I told her that I had three full meals
and I even managed some dessert
and even though I've eaten it before,
it tasted like the best dessert I've ever had
that's not a good day, she said
that's normal
I told her that I went to sleep early
and had beautiful dreams
and when I woke up
I wasn't tired anymore
that's not a good day, she said
that's normal
but I never told her
that I had showered
after days
because I can barely manage
to get out of bed
in the morning
but I felt refreshed after so long
I never told her
that I went outside after months
and it felt good to simply sit there
because I don't like doing anything anymore
but I felt warmth after so long
I never told her
that I had barely eaten anything
for days
because I don't want to nourish
a body I hate being in
and I have lost taste for everything
but I felt worthy after so long
I never told her
that I can never sleep at night
because nightmares plague me
and I cant stop my mind
from thinking too much
but I felt peace after so long
— selene ☽
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