pretend- celeste

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by luvvforoli

by luvvforoli

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TW: SH, su!c!d!al thoughts
Pronouns: they/ them
Song: Pretend- Alex G
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I've made a bloody mess, in the bathroom sink.
My hand hovers above my wrist, which is bleeding and is covered with cvts, both fresh and old.

My friends bang on the door. "Please let us in." Angelita says. "We just want to talk." Fleur whispers. Tears drip down my face into the sink. They mix with the drops of blood and create streaky red lines.

"What's happening?" Celeste says. "Y/N's in there." Ben says. "You guys go, I'll take care of them." Footsteps retreat and Celeste softly knocks on the door. "Can you unlock the door my love?" I unlock the bathroom door and Celeste steps in.

"Oh Y/N." Celeste coos as I rest in her arms. Tears rush down my face. I listen to my girlfriends heartbeat and her breathing, trying to make my breathing sound like hers. Celeste releases me and grabs the supplies to bandage my arms.

After she has cleaned me up, she lets me lay with her on her bed. I lay on her chest as she plays with my hair. "You don't have to answer this is you don't want but why did you do it?" "When I look in the mirror I don't want to see me. I just don't want to be me anymore."

"Well, you are perfect. And I love you. So if you ever need to cvt just..." She leans over and grabs a pen. "Draw on yourself. I'll start." She grabs my wrist and draws a butterfly on my wrist. "Promise me?"

"I'll try. For you."