𝐔𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐔𝐦𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚 || Tsukishima x reader story ||

Chapter 37 ~ʀᴇɢʀᴇᴛ~

"That's such an... open and mature thing for you to say," I said and he glared at me

"I'm mature!" He said and I looked about wondering if he was joking

"Uh ok," I said and then there was an awkward silence "Why is this... awkward? We aren't awkward with each other! WHAT'S HAPPENING TO US?!" I said as I started to freak out and he just smiled at me.

The way he smiled at me confused me because it wasn't a laughing smile or a "trying to pretend this isn't awkward smile" he looked at me and smiled like he was just... glad. I'm not sure what he was so glad about, but it made me feel silly for thinking their was awkwardness between us.

"Well just... talk," he said and I looked at him confused until I thought about what we could talk about

"Yknow something that I find really interesting and cool?" I said and he looked at me curiously "The fact that the majority of us feel the same way when we like someone. Your heart beats fast and your palms get sweaty and your mind starts racing while going blank at the same time, all you can hear is your heart... It's like, the only thing that is the same for all humans, the only thing that we all agree on and relate to, is the feeling of... liking someone," I said and Tsukishima smiled a little

"Still don't believe in love?" Tsukishima asked and I looked at him confused "You said 'liking someone' instead of saying love, I was just wondering if you still don't believe love is real," he said and I sighed

"It's not that I don't believe in it... it's just that I don't think it's what it's like in the movies, it just seems too good to be true," I said as I looked down at my legs that were straight 

"Well for me it's more like a bubble is created and in that bubble it's just us and no one else exists or matters," he said and I tried my best to smile

"Well that's when you're content with that person and not anxious," I said and he widened his eyes in a realising way "Is... that what it's like when you're with Yachi?" I asked and he got nervous

"Yeah," he said as he looked at the ground, I felt my stomach drop but tried to ignore it

Why do I feel so sick?

"Who knew you were so romantic," I laughed and he looked at me with a straight face "You should tell Yachi your bubble thing, it's cute," I said with a smile and he looked away

"No," he said embarrassed and I giggled

"Ok don't tell her the bubble thing then, but what are you going to tell her when you confess?" I asked curiously

"I'm not going to," he said and I looked at him confused

"What do you mean?" I asked and he avoided eye contact

"I'm not going to tell her or "confess" I just think it was more in my head than a reality," he said and I scrunched my eyebrows together

"But you were talking to her and she looked quite nervous so it can't be just in your head," I said as I crossed my arms

"We're friends and Yachi is always nervous," he said as he finally looked at me

"Not when she's around people she knows. If you like her you should tell her," I said as I snapped a little at him and he got defensive

"Why do you want me to tell her so much?" He asked a little angry and I looked away

"I just want you to be happy and not regret anything," I said sadly and he sighed

"I know that isn't about me," he said and I looked at him surprised

"But I mean it, I do want-" I said until he cut me off "I know you mean it but I know you're talking about yourself and Kageyama," he said softly