The Lost Family

pt. 14

Ur pov

I jolted up with sweat trickling down my forehead shakily I reached out for the water kept on the side of the bed taking it I gulped it down in one go

YOU ARE NO ONE!!

YOU DESERVE TO DIE!!

YOU ARE USELESS

YOU ARE JUST A BURDEN FOR EVERYONE

IT SHOULD'VE BEEN YOU INSTEAD OF UR PARENTS!!

YOU KILLED THEM

YOU ARE THE WORST

YOU WILL NEVER DO ANYTHING NICELY

YOU ALWAYS MESS UP

YOU ALWAYS HURT PEOPLE

ATTENTION SEEKER!!!

BITCH!!

MURDERER!!!

I clutched my ears to make these voices stop and I cried.. I cried as much as I could.. Something was broken inside me... Everything was broken in me...

I always wondered how these voices knew so much.. And how everything they said came true.. How.. Why..

I dnt want to go through this again... I finally overcame everything... But.. I am failing, failing again

ATTENTION!!! SELF HARM AHEAD!!!

The pain was too much.. It was too much to handle...

Suddenly I found myself standing up on my feet and opening the cabinet removing blade...

It was as if I am not in my body but I am... I started to do what always calmed me down... Always..

Drawing lines in my skin, watching how does the sharp blade cuts through it so smoothly, after some time.. When my hand started to become kind of too bloody I stopped and got back to my bed covering myself with my blanket

I watched out the window to find moon staring at me.. As if it was waiting for me to come.. To come and look at it... My tears started to flow down my eyes and I complained, I complained to the moon about everything as if it will solve my problems and even if it won't.. At least it's listening to me.. And just like that I drifted off to sleep while crying..

Next day

I woke up did my business ND started to study for my exams, I decided to skip my breakfast today.

After sometime I looked at the clock NC it was 6 pm, well time is flying nowadays, ND what? U thought I was studying the whole time? My ass lol, I spend sometime dozing of, scrolling ND shit lmao

I got up went to the kitchen and got a packet of chips, everyone else were in the living room playing video games and messing around, I went straight up and started eating my chips in peace while my favorite Playlist was on, I took my phone and went to the chat section of pintrest...it's been a few days since Kia messaged me

I messaged her, waited for her reply, but ig she's asleep so I went to take a nap too