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Out of my League

"OUT OF MY LEAGUE"
-It is a self inflicted negative thought that you don't have any chance with the only one you love regardless of whether you have or don't have evidence for that. It is the insecurity we feel whenever we found that one person we thought is so perfect for the love we are willing to share. A contented love where in even though the one we love will return the affection or not, we still love them. I think this is the very definition of what love is, giving out love without expecting too much, without being possessive."

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Habang nagsusulat ng random thoughts nakasanayan ko ng lumingon sa jalousies— hoping to catch a glimpse of him along the hallway.

He's the one i would always want to be with. He's someone i can't get enough of. He's my favorite person to annoy. He's someone i would never get tired of knowing more and more each day.

Mabait sya— sweet, caring, thoughtful, reliable, well mannered and God-fearing.

Siya yung tipong ibibigay yung best shot nya sa kahit anong ginagawa nya— Competitive, hard working, and a born leader.

Siya yung tipong pag nagexplain na, matatawa na lang ako sa sarili ko. He's very much on point at hindi sya naghehesitate ng kung anong sasabihin nya pero hindi rin naman nya hinahayaang may mamisunderstood ako. Eh ano pa nga bang masasabi ko? Lagi naman nyang natutuwid ang pag-iisip ko tuwing makikipag argue ako sa nonsense na bagay at minsan pa nga nakikipag para marinig yung point of view nyang practical at intellectual.

He knows who he is and where he stand. Ano man ang sabihin ng iba, tuloy lang sya dahil alam nya tama sya. He's strong willed and brave.

For a 16-year old, he can do so many great things. He's artistic, music inclined and an eloquent orator. He's born with a spotlight. Yung tipong pag nasa harap na sya, sa ayaw at sa gusto mo aagawin talaga ng presence nya ang atensyon mo. With the great voice he posses, he also has great ideals to share.

Despite the fact na minsan masungit sya, minsan malabo, minsan manhid, snob, irritable.. I really look up to him. Somehow he's someone I want to be. Yung taong alam yung goal nya sa buhay, yung tipong klaro sa kanya yung dreams, aspirations, the things he's capable of doing and his priorities.

He has this effect on me that whatever he says are automatically registered in my mind and his presence touches my soul that made me want to be productive in every minute of everyday and be better than i was before. He's an inspiration, a great influence.

Habang nagsusulat ng random thoughts nakasanayan ko ng lumingon sa jalousies— hoping to catch a glimpse of him along the hallway and there he is.

The person i greatly admire. Looking at him, despite all his imperfections, all i can see is a great man and i'm out of my league once again.

Wala eh. Like all the other people, i'm just someone captivated by his existence. I'm nothing but a person who enjoys his presence from a far.

Hanggang dito na lang ako, pasilay silay. Pasikretong pinagmamasdan ang achievements nya. Medyo selfish na takot na takot mapunta sya sa iba. Sorry na, sino ba naman ako, diba? All I can ever hope is only for him to see right through me.

-Ammaryllis (Her-Alter-Idem)

June 1, 2015 1:27AM

Now tell me how to completely let go of someone who seems to be even greater than a dream?

11/07/2016

✒ACGC