I'm too strange
Too wrong
I don't belong here
I don't think I belong anywhere
The people who are meant to bring me comfort
Terrify me
I can't
Keep living
Like this
Unwanted
Neglected
Ignored
Hated
My sister
My brother
I've given them my best
Nothing but my best
And yet they look at me like everyone else
They look at me like I'm disgusting
A freak
Wrong wrong wrong
There's only one person I haven't given up on
And he doesn't want me too
No one can want me
Not really
I'm too wrong to be wanted
I'm too wrong to change
I'm lonely
But I'd rather be alone in my loneliness
There is not a feeling worse than isolation
My one tether
My compass
My ground
My special one
She's stopped loving me
She's stopped wanting me
She says it's my fault
I've apologized but she hasn't
I don't know what hate is
But if I feel it towards someone
It's her
My mother disgusts me
My father terrifies me
My sister hurts me
My brother
Well
There's nothing worth staying for
Not here
(Except for him
My bleeding-winged bird
And even then
He doesn't want me
And even if he does
I can't throw away my future for him)
No one wants me?
Fine
I won't want them either
My family is full of horrible people convincing themselves they're good
Why the hell would I want their love?
YOU ARE READING
Within Time's Cracks
PoetryCall it what you will; an intricate story, a mess of emotions, an unsung song. Whatever it is, it's here, like the rest of us, and those that surround us, teetering within Time's cracks, a hairbreadth away from falling over the edge and into the aby...
