Within Time's Cracks

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what is this warmth
i feel when you smile
why does it makes me calm
and want to cry at the same time

i want to feel your heartbeat
and let it lull me to sleep

i want to hear your voice
which chases the dark from this world

i want it to only be us
i want it to nice

i want to feel something i've long since felt
i want to feel safe

a spark of that appears
right when you are here

and that spark disappears
when you leave

why must the world be so big?
too big that i can't see you everyday

i want to cast fire to those who harmed you
i don't know what else to do

it's selfish, i know
but i want you

is it odd that i miss you?
even when you're right here
is it selfish that i want you?
when you have a life to live?

i haven't been selfish
ever since i was a child
so let me, just this once
it has been quite a while

i want to hug you
for eternity and more
i want you to hug me
and sing me a song of old

i want the world to be just us
i know it's selfish, but please

i've done so many things
and all of that isn't for me

there are legends out there, people they call the great
but even the unwavering
needs to catch a break

i've been selfless for far too long
and now i want to be human

these things in my chest
they beg to be free
they beg me to rest for once
they beg that you guard me

there's too much to worry
responsibility
family
simply, too many

we've drifted far apart
too far, in my thought

i wish i am the child i once was
i wish everyone else disappears
i know it's selfish, god, it's selfish
but can't i be selfish for once?

can i be a child for once?

can i be your child for once?

and not a girl you once hugged and slept with

but a girl you still hug and sleep with

i miss being in your lap
i almost cried, that one time
but, as always, it didn't last
when can it happen again?

please.