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C H A P T E R 65

"Oh yeah no problem." Kenny responded and looked at me. "I'll be back okay ?"

I nodded and he kissed my cheek before him and Jake got out of sight.

I sighed as the silence continued between Charlotte and I. The atmosphere was just awkward and tense, I don't like this.

She turned to leave before I stopped her. "Charlotte, wait." I finally let out, causing her to turn and look back at me.

"Look, I'm sorry okay. I'm really-"

"What exactly are you apologizing for ?" She crossed her arms and raised her eyebrows at me. Tough, okay.

I sighed. "For lying to you? Hiding my true identity? Keeping secrets ?"

"Blue I couldn't care less if you were Spiderman, Python or batman in disguise." She responded. "What I cared about was you as my friend, or atleast I thought you were..

You weren't ready to tell me or you just didn't wanna tell me, that's fine I respect that. It wasn't even my place to question you or judge you. That's why I didn't."

"Charlotte-"

"Blue I didn't care what broke you and Kenny apart. It wasn't any of my concern. I only cared about how the both of you were feeling and coping with everything. That's why I called to check up on you every single day and not once did you ever answer my call."

So that's why she's mad. Charlotte isn't mad about me lying and keeping secrets from them, she's mad about me pushing her away. I remember how I would avoid her calls and messages after my breakup with Kenny. She would call and send texts everyday and I would just ignore them. I would delete her voice notes without even listening to them until I finally decided to block her. I just thought she wanted an explanation from me, I thought she was also angry and disappointed that I lied to her. I was just going through so much that I didn't need anything to remind me how terrible a person I was or how much I hurt them. But Charlotte just wanted to check how I was holding up with the breakup, not judge me.

"I sent you messages and voice notes, trying to just be a friend and be there for you." She continued and I just stared at her. "I saw how devastated Kenny was and I could only imagine what you were going through. Not once in five years did you pick up the phone and decide to check up on Charlotte. I thought we were friends.. but Blue you proved that, I was stupid to think our friendship was real. You proved that I was also just a mission to you."

Wow.. is this what guilt feels like ? I don't like this feeling.

I feel terrible.

"Well you should." She replied.

Did I say that out loud ?

"Charlotte I was just overwhelmed by everything." I admitted. "I felt like such a horrible and dispicable person, which I am. But when it came to Kenny.. it just hit me hard. I regreted my choices, wishing I could just turn back the hands of time and just do things differently. You guys were the most purest and genuine people I've ever met, which made it much more hard when it ended.

I didn't want you or anyone to remind me of how horrible a person I was. That's why I didn't even open or read your messages. I thought they were all stored with judgements and I really didn't need that in my life" I chuckled. "It was already hard as it is."

"Well I never judged you. You would've known that if you answered atleast one phone call."

"I get that.. and I'm really sorry. I apologize for pushing you away like that. And making you think our friendship meant nothing to me.. because nothing could be more far from the truth "

I could see how she loosened up compared to when she first saw me, it was progress.

"I'm sorry okay ?" I pouted. This usually works on Kenny and the twins.

She rolled her eyes and let out a small smile.

"Come on Charlotte. Matteo and Kai don't get along and I'm pretty sure it's my son's fault." I nodded, agreeing with myself. I smiled as I looked at her. "Why don't we be good examples? I teach my son to apologize when he's wrong. You teach yours to forgive when someone realises their mistakes and owns up to it."

"You really gonna use that card ?" Her eyebrows arched.

"Is it working ?"

She chuckled. "I missed you so much."

"You gonna give me a hug ?" I smiled, opening up my arms. She came closer and engulfed me in a hug, holding me close.

"Don't ever just dissapeare like that again."

"I won't, I promise."