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Ilang buwan na ang nakalipas at alam kong mangyayari na ang pangyayaring hindi ko kailanman handang tanggapin. Pwede bang dito ka nalang habang buhay? Pwede bang wag ka nalang umalis?

We are here in the rooftop, watching the sun to set together. This sunset makes me sad. Can i be with you forever? Can i go with you?

"Ang ganda talaga ng sunset!" I said with a hapy tone trying to hide the fact that Ryu is soon be leaving.

"Yeah, It's so beautiful that it makes me sad." He said.

I tried to hide my pain with him. Why do the universe is so harsh to us? Bakit kailangan pang pagtagpuin kung aalis lang din? Bakit siya pa? Pwede bang ako nalang ang mauuna?

Hindi ko kayang saksihan ang pagalis niya, Hindi ko kayang magisa. Siya ang naging dahilan kung bakit andito pa ako sa mundong ito. Ang naging dahilan ba kung bakit ko gustong mabuhay ay siya ring dahilan kung bakit gusto kong mawala?

"Ryu, may tanong ako!" I said at umupo sa may bench.

"hmm?" he said and tumabi sakin.

"Can you promise me that you will not hide anything from me?" I said..

Matagal ko nang alam, Ryu. Matagal ko nang alam na kunti nalang ang panahon mo rito. Your dad told me. At first i want to hate you but something told me that "He's a hurt soul just like you dear" And i know that you kept it secret from me so that i will not be in pain and you don't want me to suffer but leaving without a goodbye is thousand times of pain that will cause me.

I looked at his eyes, I'm sorry that i can't do anything love. I'm so sorry that the universe will not let uys have a happy ending...

"Can we share the pain? Promise me that you will tell anything that causes you a pain. It's unfair if we laughed together and you are crying alone." I said

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Flashback

Someone knocked in my door, i thought si tiya yon but it was.... Ryu's Dad.

"Clea..." Ryu's Dad said with a teary eyes.

I hurriedly went to him.

"Hala napano po kayoo?" I said

"Please Clea..... Please stay with my son.." He said

Nagtataka ako hindi ko alam kung ano ang pinagsasabi niya. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong gagawin ko kasi umiiyak na siya.

"Kumalma po muna kayo" Binigyan ko siya ng tubig at buti naman ininom niya.

"Bakit po kayo narito?" Sabi ko..

"Clea, I know Ryu's personality. He will never tell you this but clea you need to know something.." He said

Kumunot ang noo ko at kinakabahan. Ano ang hindi kayang sabihin sakin ni Ryu?

"I don't want you to suffer, dear. Kaya sasabihin ko sayo ang hindi kayang masabi ni Ryu." He said

"Ryu only have 3 months left...." He said and started crying again.

Tumigil ang aking mundo. Tumahimik ang pandinig ko.. Hindi ko alam kung jinojoketime ba ako nitong tatay niya. Hahahaha, impossible nangpprank lang ata to e.

"Eto naman po, wag naman po kayong nag joke nang ganiyan." I awkwardly laughed.

His dad didn't reply and just looked at me with a sincere eyes.

It was serious and true. Suddenly, my tears fell. I don't know what to feel. Anger? because ryu didn't tell me this? Sad? because he's leaving? Pain? because of what i knew? Happy? because his dad tell me this.

I don't know what emotions should i feel. I started crying in fromt of his dad. I thought magagamot na si Ryu? I thought gagaling na siya? So why?! Bakit nangyayari to?

"3 months?" I cried.

"Please don't be mad at Ryu. Please don't tell him that i'm the one who told you. To be honest hindi kami magkaayos ni Ryu because i did some things that made him looked at me like a monster... My son suffered enough. " He said and cried too..

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What if we didn't met? What if he didn't tried me to stop from ending my life in the rooftop? Am i going to be happy? Hindi na ba siya masasaktan?

What if we lived like a normal teenagers? What if we are not in the hospital? What if this place is not our tagpuan? What if...

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