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C H A P T E R 60

I won't feel complete relief until she finally opens her eyes wakes up, but this was a huge improvement and it bought me some type of serenity and peace. Yesterday Blue couldn't even breath on her own without the respirator, but now.. a huge part of me was relieved.

"She's out of danger. She might not be responding as of yet.. but she's doing a lot better than she was two days ago. This is a tremendous improvement."

"Thanks." I muttered and he nodded before leaving my site. I got inside and found Kai and Kiara on the couch, watching something on their iPad.

I sat on the chair next to her bed, holding her hand in mine. I didn't even know what to say. I was so angry at her, but most importantly, I was frustrated at myself. She's in this condition because of me. The bullet she took was meant for me. I really shouldn't have listened to her, I shouldn't have bent down. But I did, and now she's laying here instead of me.

She fucking took a bullet for me. I swear there's no woman as infuriating as Blue. She never listens to anyone, she literally does as she pleases, and you cannot stop her or tell her otherwise.

The masochist part of me must've really loved that about her. She's frustrating as hell, but she kept me on my toes. I never know what she's thinking or which action she's gonna take. Everything about her was a mystery. But she was worth every hardship I'd have to face to be with her.

When she wasn't around, I felt the emptiness that had surrounded me since I was a kid heavier than before. She was a constant character in my dreams. In my head, in my heart.

I knew for a fact I never stopped loving her. The feeling was stronger than anything I've felt before. It made me feel like I needed her to breathe. Like I would do any fucking thing just to spend time with her.

No matter how much I tried. I don't think I can love anyone as much as I love her. I don't know any man alive who could withstand the temptation and manipulation and emotion I've felt with Blue, and not love her.

I would do anything to see the glint of sunshine in her brown eyes. Anything to hear her soft voice. Anything just to hold her at night... Anything just to make her a permanent being in my life.

***

Just like yesterday, or the day before, or the seven days before... we were back here. Anticipating for some type of movement from her, even if it's just a twitch of an eyelash or finger, anything.

Nothing has improved, she's still laying there, surrounded by a bunch of beeping machines, oxygen mask on, eyes closed, not moving, not twitching.. nothing.

I don't want to even want to think what would happen if she didn't wake up. I don't know how the twins would survive without her. I don't know how I'd survive without her. I got a first hand experience of how my life looks like without her these past five years, I don't think I'd be able to re-live it again.

Blue is stronger than she gives herself credit for. She's the strongest person I know, not the strongest woman. There's no one who knows how to handle pain more than her, physically or emotionally. That's how I know she'll pull through this, that's why I hope she'll pull through this.

"He works at the Krabby Patty with Squidward. They both work for Mr Krabs who's really stingy but SpongeBob doesn't really care... Ohhh he also has a pet snail called Garry-"

"Wait, this is Squidward ?" I interrupted Kai looking at the cartoon playing on the tablet.

"Yes."

"He's an octopus ?" I raised my eyebrow at him and he nodded. "And this SpongeBob is a sponge ?"

"Yes." He replied smiling. "And his pants are square. He also wears these really white undies that are also square."