Double Trouble

Chapter 10

The promise to care about each other is the one of the promises from us which hold me up. It's my distraction from life. To care about Li and get the 'normal' life back. And I through I made it. At least a bit. But likely everything was just pretend to be kind of good. My walls, my healing, my new life. Just everything. My walls started to break with the first step in this house again. My healing was replaced with new wounds and my new life was buried six feet under the ground.

My brothers are not the problem. And the little interruption with Damon gives me a little distraction with the situation and to be honest it was kind of funny how scared and subordinate he was. Karma is a bitch. Especially if it comes from wolves. I think he learned his lesson. Hopefully for him. I have nothing again a repeat honestly.

But the surrounding was too much. The hallway in which we run around with our lives to get the most food. The kitchen in which we ate all the meals together and play against our family's like the game 'Schnappi the little crocodile'. I won't say we play it today too. But to our defense: It is really funny. And easy to understand too. It's simple. You sit across from each other and the one tries to throw a spoon ice ... hahaha ... sorry it's only kind of funny to remember how often we didn't hit the target so the ice hang on the walls. Alessandro was every time so upset and wanted to give us a 'punishment' but our mother was so kind and defended us from him and let us go with it. Anyways, the goal was to hit the mouth from the other one. Very funny especially when you play it by an important dinner with how we know now employees - they found it funny too, so our father and borders were just killjoys.

Then there is the living room in which we watched at our last days 'bean maja' again.

The joke from Li let me feel a bit better but now I feel ... I just feel just too much.

With my last power and the left view, I have, I tap Li on the hips in the hope Valentino won't notice something.

Li turns to me, and her face goes darker. That's her way to cower feelings from the outside. But I only see worried. I mustn't tell her what's going on. She understands instantly.

"Where's the toilet?" - Li asks although it is unnecessary, but it will only throw up questions if we show that we can remember everything. And I have no need them to know about any of our private things. Normally I would say now 'Wow Li can ask something and not order it' too but now I have other, worse problems at the moment.

"Eh-" Valentino doesn't understand the question but Li lets play her theater arts and he understands what we 'want' "Oh I understand. Look just the last door right. I will wait in front of it for you two." Li doesn't lose a second after a nod and leads me to the door. As soon as we're in I break down.

It's too much.

It's too much-

"Come out. Come out wherever you are. You cannot hide forever." The voice from 'Sir' halls through the hallway. I sit in the last gap of the wardrobe and just bet to God that he doesn't find me. I didn't do anything and that's the fault. He's getting bored because we obey. He's also in a bad mood today. The day started with a beating too. He beat Li nearly to death ... and I couldn't do anything.

"NIC!"

I hear footsteps which get louder and louder and-

"There you are you little ass! Wait and see what I will do with you-"

"NELIONO NERCURIO DELUCA!" - with that I startle up and look straight into the eyes of Li. They show worries and exhaustion. I think I don't look different. The last days and this now were too much too. I'm tired. Tired of my weak mind. Tired of this situation. Tired of letting play with me like a chess figure. They want us in our life after 11 hellish years! They act like we're coming home from a school hostel. They're such ... they're such-