My story

I still remember...

Behind my smile lie my fears
Behind those laughs I hide my tears
I'm one of those you call fake
And the more I go the more I ache

I have a dark secret I cannot tell
Sometimes it feels like a wizard's spell
I've been told it's not my fault
How could I know it was assault?

I still see him everywhere
Why is that? It's so unfair
He took away my innocence
He forced me into silence

They say I should forgive
But he's made my life hard to live
I see him in my dreams
I hope he can hear my screams

It isn't fair that he's free
He ruined my life the day he molested me
I try to move forward
But it's as if I'm anchored

I'm trying real hard
But still I'm so scarred
I try to hide my pain
Even though it drives me insane

To you I may seem happy
But deep inside I'm really angry
Because behind my smile lie my fears
Because behind those laughs I hide my tears
I'm the one you call fake
Some days I just wish people knew how much I ache