Khella's POV
My sister And I are broken physically and mentally. She doesn't know that I know what's going on with her from the very start.
But the saddest part is my parents didn't know about my sister's struggle, they only know about mine.
We file a case for him. Paulit-ulit kaming umaalis para matapos Ang hiring. We're almost done the process when my mother told me na nakiawa Si tita SA kaniya.
Ha!?
"Itigil nalang natin nak ha!?" Sabi sakin ni mama.
"Sgeh ma." Sabi ko at naghintay ng Oras para SA hiring ko.
After one hour pumasok na kami at sinabi Ang pinag-usapan Namin Kanina ni mama. As expected, nagalit.
"Kung saan patapos na Kayo dun nyu pa naisipan na itigil? At ikaw Hindi kaba naaawa SA anak mo?" Singhal SA Amin Ng pulis na sumuporta SA Amin. Hindi kami umimik. Ganun din Ang naging reaction Ng Attorney nang marinig Ang sinabi Namin.
"Sgeh. Ganto nalang, SA edad na 20+ pwede mo eopen ulit Ang case in your own kung gusto mong makuha Ang justice na nilakad nyu this month. Ok ba tayo dun?" Mahabang pahayag Ng Attorney. Tumango Naman kami.
Habang pauwi kami napaisip Ako. Sayang Yung pera at Oras na inilaan Namin dun. Kumuha Ng medicolegal, at kung ano pang process na kailangan SA kaso, pero naisip ko Rin Ang kalagayan Nina tita. The medicolegal is a strong evidence here, there is a lot of findings from me.
After we close the case, I feel that there is a gap between me and my mother's sister relationship.
Awkward
The best word that can describe between me and her. Nang makauwi na kami napagpasyahan Nina mama na magbakasyon Muna dun SA Boracay.
After a weeks staying there I decided to transfer at dun mag-aral. Sometimes I can't focus my study because that trauma, insomnia, anxiety, depression hit me so hard to the point that I want to end my life.
Hurting my own skin is the perfect way to escape. I tried to slash my hand, drinking alcohol, and smoking for the first time but none of those can disappear my problem.
I'm being rebel to my parents, I didn't go to school for almost one week. I always disappoint them. They just didn't understand me at all, I'm doing it just to escape the cruel reality that I enter.
None of them can understand the pain.
One day, my best friend is celebrating her 18th birthday.
"So sasama ka??" Tanong Niya.
"Game."
She was inviting me to drink in her house. I will try what does the alcohol taste is. It was my first time.
Nang makarating kami sa SA Bahay nila ay agad kaming bumili ng alak.
Gin with juice(dalandan). I almost consume the alcohol.
"What the!? Anyare Sau? "
"Gago paubos na Ang alak?? Ehh kakalagay ko lang Ng ice ahh!?"
Sabay na Sabi nila. Nahihilo na Ako, I tried to walk but it's look like I can't. After that I didn't know what happened next.
Wasted...That's me!
Sabi nila ay hinatid Ako at pasalamat nalang at walang tao SA Bahay. Nang pumasok Ako SA school ay nagulat Ako dahil kinocomfort nila ako. At dun ko lang na realize na nasabi ko lahat as in lahat.
Heckk!!
The day after, sabay kaming kumain Nina mama, Ako at si ate. And then Nakita ni mama Yung mga sugat SA pulsuhan ko.
"Ano Yan!?" Sabi Niya.
"Ha!?"
"Yung SA kamay mo. Ano Yan?" Sabi Niya sabay kuha Ng kamay ko at tiningyan ko. Nataranta Naman Ako kaya nonsense Ang nasabi ko.
Third attempt...
"Ahh... Nasagi ko Ang bubong ma." Sabi ko. Nagdududa Naman akong tiningnan ni mama at ni Ate.
"Nagdadrugs Kaba!?" I was shocked when she said that.
"Grabee ka naman ma." Ito lang Ang nasabi ko.
"Umayos ka!" ...
Natapos Ang pag-uusap na Yun na mabigat Ang dibdib ko. Dumeretso Ako SA kwarto at dun umiyak nang umiyak. No one can take away my pain .
No one. I always thought.
I tried so hard to forget that memories that I experience back then. But how? How can I forget those when we live at the same place? How can I forget if another person tried to touch me again? And how can I forget if those person that can gave me a nervous by looking at them is always there passing Infront of me, pretending that there's nothing wrong?
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Non-Fiction"You know even my first priority is my family I even prefer you as my first priority too."
