After everything

Hot showers

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This is most awkward drive ever

Me and Logan are both currently squished together in the back of a small taxi and we are not speaking

Some people may call me sensitive but when you have been through what I have then you would understand

This is why I don't tell people because they would all just rub my back and say it's going to be okay

Well guess what ?

It's a year later and I'm still not okay, I constantly feel like I have people stepping on eggshells around me and nobody treats me same as before apart from Sophia

And god I can't believe this shit with Logan why was I so stupid to believe he might actually take an interest in me

Of course that was the only reason we did what we did the other night it's just so I would open up to him

Well he's wrong

Taxi comes to a stop me and Logan both get out of our sides and pay the taxi man before almost back into the hotel still not speaking

I wonder how long this going to last we are back at work on Thursday

Taking the elevator back up to the room we walk in the room in silence

I go straight for the bathroom to wipe off my makeup and have a shower

I need to clear my fucking head

Using a makeup wipe I get rid of all my makeup and look at myself in the mirror

Will anyone ever love me?

Because ever since I was a teenager I always thought that I was going to end up alone and considering I'm turning 30 really soon I probably am

Wiping the tears from my eyes I strip off my clothes and turn the shower on high

Getting in I can feel the water burn my skin

Fuck why does the pain feel good ?

It shouldn't be normal but I've done it so many times before I'm used to it now

After washing my hair and body I grab a towel off the side and rub the steam off the mirror

Looking at myself I can see how red my skin is

Should wait abit before leaving?

Maybe Logan will ask why I'm so red? Fuck who am I kidding he probably doesn't give a shit

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Logan's pov

I fucked up bad

Cora is pissed off at me and now isn't speaking to me at all

As soon as we got back to hotel she didn't speak to me to talk things through

I don't get why she just won't tell anybody what happened to her

And I'm not wrong she has changed and yes she probably is sick of hearing it it but it's the truth

God I never want to hurt her but she needs to fucking open up

I love her either way but she's so closed off now and I just to know why

I just want to know why my girl is so sad

Hearing the shower turn on I realise she must be clearing her head

Grabbing stripping off my clothes I grab a blanket from the bed we both shared last night and a pillow

Looking at the bed I wonder will that ever happen again or did she just get caught up in the moment?

I wouldn't be surprised she's never taken a notice to me

Why would she ?

Hearing the door open I turn my head towards it and see Cora walk out in small short pjs and her skin is bright red

What the fuck

"Cora" I say but she ignores me

"Cora" I say a little louder she still ignores me

"Cora!" I eventually shout which catches her attention

Walking towards her I pick her arm and see her hiss in pain "I'm sorry Cora but what the fuck are you doing to yourself by turning to heat up that high?" I ask concerned for her

She yanks her arm back "it's relaxing"

Bull shit

I give her a stern look like I'm her fucking dad "Cora why the fuck do you turn it so high and don't give me that it's relaxing bullshit"

She takes a deep breath and looks up at me "I do it when I want to clear my fucking head alright dad is that good enough for you" she says sarcastically

"Why?" I ask

"Why what" she snaps back at me

"Why do you do this to yourself Cora" she looks at me like I'm pathetic

"God it's not like I'm doing anything worse is it ?" I can tell she is mad

"Fucks sake Cora your still hurting yourself by doing this and God you need to fucking stop it" I take a pause "please, please Cora stop it"

She laughs

She fucking laughs "why would I stop it it's nothing serious Logan" she screams

"Of course it fucking is Cora ever since last year you've fucking changed I know you don't like that but god you have and why don't you tell anyone?" I scream matching her tone

God we are toxic

Cora sits down on edge of the bed wiping her eyes I didn't mean to make her cry I walk over to her and sit down next to her and pull her into my side why she sobs hard

"You wouldn't understand nobody would fucking understand Logan" she doesn't stop crying

Rubbing her back I try to comfort her "tell me Cora let me understand and let me help you" I say practically begging

Cora sits up and hiccups a couple of times before speaking "okay I'll tell you I promise but just not right now okay"

I nod my head "okay"

She crawls over the top of the bed and pulls the covers down and oats the side next to her "come on" she motions me to go over to her

Getting under the covers she snuggles into me and I kiss her forehead "I just want to be okay again Logan" she starts to sob again

Pulling her in tighter I whisper against her forehead "I promise you will"

And I will stand by that promise

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A bit of a sad one today sorry about that also thank you for the likes on my tik tok

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