The paramedic A love story

Ch.9

The next day was her funeral mass we arrived at the church

Two weeks before Wake or the funeral we had meeting with Fr.Connor who he said my dad funeral mass also my grandpas I felt comfortable with him doing my moms

We sat in his office

And first off I'm so sorry for your loss I know how losing your dad was traumatizing but now losing your mom. How May holding up? Fr.Connor said

She holding up she with my grandma but the first night mom wasn't home she asked Where Mommy and I had to say she has passed away. She sobbed I said

Are there anything about your mom you what to talk about? Fr.Connor asked me

Flower she was big Gardner so you can talk how each seeds represented each of my life and make funny don't be so sad about it I said

The conversation was long and emotionally exhausted

Present day
We entered the church and sat in the front the ern shines as the sun hit it

May sat next to me and Xavier sat beside her because we didn't want her to run out to save our lives if could prevent that

The family filled the church behind me as I closed my eyes took deep breathe

The funeral everything was just muffle and blurry

Joyce has asked me to read letter she wrote to her mom Fr.Connor said

I took sharp deep breathe

Dear Mom
I can't believe your gone your really gone. My heart shatters into thousand of pieces. You were my rock the rock that held us together without you I feel lost I feel hiker without map. May is crying herself to sleep every single day. I miss you mommy
Love
Joyce

I literally couldn't breathe I felt I was drowning in my tears I got up ran out of the church everything in slow motion. The second I stepped outside I puked in the garden.

Xavier POV
I left May with one of her aunts as I went to attends to Joyce

Joyce I said

Why dose it hurt so much? Joyce said

I don't know Come on let's finish this I said

I don't if I emotionally continue on Joyce said

Joyce POV
Remember what I told in the ambulance Xavier said

Hold on your almost there until you have safe mental breakdown Xavier said

I shook my head

We walked in

The priest smiled as I entered the church

I sat back down and after mass we went to the cemetery

I held my mom ashes close to my chest

I walked to the person who put in the grave

I kissed

Love you mom I whispered tears silently falling

I sat on the table and went and sat down

May held my hand

The priest did the burial interment pray and Xavier sat next to us holding May in his arms as she sobbed

I picked clump of dirt put in the hole

Please do our earth in it I said

I sat back down

After the ceremony we headed back home for much needed mental health break for all of us

May was total wreck