The paramedic A love story

Ch.8

After about three weeks of planning my mom wake and funeral the day have finally upon us. Thank freaking lord Xavier was with me. Going to the morgue seeing her body was extremely difficult. Having Xavier as boyfriend was the topping on top of cupcake for me

May had also been big help so been trying to hold herself up but there moment when me and Xavier will have take care of her. I don't mind it she only five years old lost a mother I don't blame her. For the wake we're get together not formal share story about my mom. Then the funeral service a whole damn mass she'll like it a lot

The day of the wake it was raining the way I was feeling

May had gotten dressed in the dress she chose

Your look cute and you look handsome and I look like myself which I haven't felt like to I said

In my eyes you look gorgeous Xavier said

I blushed 

We  headed to the party room which connected to my Aunt apartment complex

We arrived there was no body there

Why is it so dismal in here? I asked

It a wake Aunt Katie said

It my mom have never met my mom she wouldn't to be all depressing I said

True Mary was colorful person Aunt Katie said

How have May taken it? Aunt Katie said

Jumping around like nothing was happening

She has handle herself fine I mean she was heartbroken but we got the handsome man to help us through it all I said

Xavier Jonathan at your service Xavier said making me laugh

How did you get so lucky? Aunt Katie said

I got no clue I said

Look there little sandwiches May said

I laughed very hard

I looked the photo

May walked to me

I picked her up

You know who that is? I asked

It me May said

You know that is? I asked

Daddy May said

Yes and your were in tummy growing I said

My mom she's we're in an ern

Hey mom I touched as tears peaked at my eyes

You can get through this you got this for mom and dad I whispered to myself

People started showing

Every I'm sorry for your loss took it out of me

We miss your mom too and tears it was all too much

May was handling it quiet well

Our grandma showed up

Hey Grams I said

You mom was special lady your lucky to have your mom Grandma said

I sniffling

After everyone had shown up

Good morning thank you for all show up for my mom know she'll would be so happy about it. My mom was very special lady she certainly loved me and my sister. My mom was hit by drunk driver and so I asked the ambulance driver what did she say? They said she was peaceful and she closed her eyes and was gone. She was there me for everything umm last three weeks been hard I attempted suicide and I was in psych ward. She actually on the way to the hospital to see me when was hit. I love you mom so much I'll never forget you

So if you have something to say or a story the door is free for everyone I said sitting chair

May stood up which I was shocked but it okay

I knelt down close to her

My mommy was special I love very much. Roses are red violets are blue my mom are green she love me very much

May burst into tears

What else do you wanna tell about her? I said trying hold back tears

She loved me very much and I'll never forget her May said

I picked her up as so sobbed into my chest I rubbed her back

I leaned against a chair trying not to cry myself

Xavier walked up to me rubbing my back also

Joyce you've been through so much. Losing your father and losing your mother. Taking your sister under your wing. Mary was unique person who showed the light in the darkness Uncle Ollie said

I needed to take a breather like badly

I walked outside breaking down in tears I squatted not trying to alert May because I had to be strong for her.

My godfather Ollie

Hey kiddo Ollie said

I wrapped my arms around him as I cried into his chest

Let it out Ollie said

No matter I became an adult overnight in that moment I was a child

We walked back in Ollie wrapped his arms around me

I got thing water I sat on chair

Staring watching people walking back and forth. My eyes grew heavier

Of course my dumb uncle had to say something about something wrong with this

Why can't we do a bigger wake with everyone? Uncle Ian said

I pushed up against the wall

You know I'm not gonna let your sideline me like to my mother after my father killed himself. You try hold my sister sobbed herself to sleep every night I screamed as I stumbled

I looked at my hands

My therapist spoke into my head

Remember your in control just breathe take step back calm yourself her voice repeated in my head

I'm sorry I said

Hey grief happens and those shouldn't left my mouth Uncle Ian said

I needed to get out of here I said

Xavier took my hand led me to the bathroom

What May? I said

You need to take care of yourself your too worked up Xavier said

That minute second I planted a kiss on him.

I love you I said

I love you Xavier said