The paramedic A love story

Ch.4

I groggy when I opened my eyes Mom was sitting next to me

Mom I said

You did great Mom said

I lifted my shirt see scar

How you feeling? Dr.Isaiah said

Good I said

We're gonna let your rest for the night in the morning discuss the course of action. Any questions? Dr.Isiah asked us

Did my appendix cause me to feel depressed and/or suicidal? I asked

I don't know but to say your lucky to be alive it miracle you went to the hospital Dr.Isiah said

I nodded as he left the room

I need to go potty I said

Let's go Abby said

Can't I go by myself I asked

No not after let see trying to end your life Mom said

But I'm here appendicitis I said

No your not your because your tried taking pills just so happens to have one Mom said

Can we pretend that it didn't happen? I said

No because if you don't access the source it'll happen again the next time it might do more damage Mom said

I had having mom who a nurse I said

Let's go Abby said

She helped to the bathroom it hurt a lot to sit down my body was aching everything from here to there hurt urinating hurt a lot

Soon I was back into bed as they tucked me with warm blanket they gave mom a bed to sleep in

I soon was asleep finally

But I woke every thirty minutes by beeping

Can we turned that off so I can get some damn sleep I said

Shh Mom said

I was able to get decent sleep before rounds

Joyce Zander
Came on with attempted to take own life ended up getting an appendix removal
Goal to move to psych start treatment Abby said

It sounds like movie I said

More so like horror movie Mom said

What ever I said laughing

It not funny Dr.Isiah said

It is I said

We're moving to the psych ward and you might recognize your psych nurse Dr.Isiah said

Isn't Chris Pratt Zac Efron Ryan gosling I kept going

Stop Dr.Isiah said

It none of those hot celebrities Mom said

They moved me up to psych

Any personal belongings give to mom you don't need those Abby said

But my dad dog collars I said

Too bad kiddo Abby said

I'll take good care of it for you Mom said

Okay I said handing it over

Room 30 there was just bed anti suffocating blankets

They made completely change out into another pair scrub and watched pretty violating to say myself. The bathroom had no locks on them and it outward facing door no one could sitting front of the door blocking it

I had nothing

Say by to mom Abby said

Bye I said

Bye sweetie see you soon Mom said

After awhile I wanna stir the pot and get yelled for some reason I was rebellious

So I left my room huge alarm sounded

Aren't you supposed to be in your room a security guard said

No I'm not I said

He escorted me back and the nurses lost there damn minds

Then I complete utter breakdown

I felt I was puppet they were controlling me to do stuff they wanted me to do

I started destroying my room first off

We need back up Abby said

I picked up knife which why is there a knife in psych ward mind boggles me

I'll stab myself I said

You don't want to do this Abby said

Another male nurse walked

Joyce hand me the knife

It Xavier from the ambulance

I can't handle life anymore I cried

But we're here to help Abby said

I hate losing control I cried

Hand me the knife and go to your room or go seclusion cell Abby said

I backed up against the wall dropped to the floor wrapping mt arms around me as I cried harder

They got the knife from me

Can I have the Safety smock please Abby said

Xavier sat next to me

We got this Xavier said putting his hand out

I let small smile out

Come on let's go Abby said

They removed my furniture only and mat on the floor with nothing.

They took my scrubs off and put me in an Safety smock that used in prison cell

Now I feel like prisoner I said

Xavier got to spend the night with me let me rephrase he sat there watched me but I which he could hold me as I slept

Your paramedic by day and a psych nurse by night I asked

Yes they don't have enough male nurse sometime females only open up to Male nurses Xavier said