Strings Attached • JIARA•

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Kie's POV:

JJ and I were okay. JJ still loved me. JJ and I were having a baby together. Today we were going to the doctor for the first time and we were both so excited. We both have wanted a baby for a while now and it was finally happening.

We were sitting in the room waiting for the doctor to come in and I was nervous. The doctor asked a bunch of questions and then it was time for the ultrasound. It was after that, my whole world came crashing down.

"I'm sorry, but it looks like this is a chemical pregnancy. A chemical pregnancy is when the fetus isn't viable to develop. Most people miscarry before five weeks and you're just a little over six weeks. You'll most likely experience some bleeding and cramping in the next few days. It's best to wait about three months before trying again"

I was crying and I could tell that JJ was emotional too. We were reassured that this is very common and there wasn't anything we could do to prevent it. Most people don't even know that they are pregnant during a chemical pregnancy. JJ came over and grabbed my hand he kissed my forehead.

I got dressed and we were walking to the parking lot. I went to the passenger seat and just sat there. I felt so numb. JJ looked at me and said, "This isn't your fault, Kie. It just wasn't meant to be right now. I promise, we'll try again as soon as you're ready"

"Really?" I asked scared he wouldn't want a baby right now

"Yes, we're going to have a baby. I promise you that"

We went to my house and I didn't even care that my mom and dad watched me bring JJ up to my bedroom. We went and laid in bed all day. JJ was being so supportive and comforting. I was flying back to Florida tomorrow morning. I didn't want to leave JJ, especially because the bleeding started the next morning.

It was pretty much similar to a regular period, except my cramps were much worse. I told my mom that I was sick and I pushed my flight out another day. I was sitting in the bathtub and JJ sat in the bathroom with me and he played with my hair.

After he left and went to get me food and he returned with my favorites. We ate in my bed and that night I started to feel a little bit better. I headed back to Florida the following day and JJ and I were back to facetiming every night before bed. I really missed this.

Classes kept me super busy between Thanksgiving and Christmas. Since I was rushing to finish college so fast, I only got a week off for Christmas. I flew home and my mom picked me up from the airport.

I immediately drove to the Chateau to go see my friends. They all got home earlier this morning and when I showed up they were all outside waiting. I walked right up to JJ and hugged him. He wrapped his arms around me and whispered, "I've missed you so much"

After my hug with JJ, I hugged the rest of the pogues and we all talked about our college lives, work, and how excited we were for Christmas. JJ and I spent the night together at the Chateau and then the next day was Christmas Eve, I brought JJ with me to my parent's house and all my cousins were excited to see him again. My mom and dad weren't thrilled that I brought him home for Christmas, but I didn't care.

We spent the next few days together just hanging out and then we went back to the Chateau to be with our friends. On New Year's Eve, we were all supposed to go to a party. We were all dressed up and ready to go when JJ spoke up and said, "I don't even want to go to the stupid party. The only people I'll hang out with there are you guys. I'd rather stay here and have our own party"

"I agree" I said backing him up and the pouges also all agreed

None of us even really wanted to get drunk so we changed out of our party clothes and into pajamas. We played a few board games and it got super competitive. We then watched a Christmas movie and it was getting close to midnight. This year we were all getting a kiss at midnight. John B and Sarah, Cleo and Pope, and me and JJ.

I noticed JJ was acting kinda strange the closer it got to midnight. I wondered why he was so anxious or stressed. I would ask him about it later when we were in bed. The countdown was on and JJ had both his hands in his pocket and he pulled them out and looked super upset. The countdown was on and JJ grabbed me and he kissed me. We were kissing as the clock struck midnight and when we broke apart, JJ looked at me and he said, "Kie, I love you"

"I love you too" I said giving him another kiss

John B and Sarah were going to bed in their room and JJ and I were heading into the guest room. We were laying in bed and I asked, "J, are you okay? You just seemed super stressed out there"

"Yeah, I'm good. I was just thinking about how last year I totally blew it with you by not telling you that I loved you"

I laughed and said, "I was so pissed at you. I wanted to hear you say it so bad"

"Well, I fucked up that night but now you get to hear me say it all the time. I love you, Kiara Anna"

"Awww, I love you, Jackson James" I said kissing him softly

We were woken up the next morning to John B opening the door. Thankfully, we were under the blankets.

"Dude, we could have been fucking" JJ said

"You were snoring... Get up and get dressed we got things to do" John B said

JJ and I looked at each other and I said, "I don't want to get up. I want to stay in bed with you all day"

JJ yelled to John B, "We're staying in bed"

JJ kissed me and he said, "I think we should spend the whole day practicing baby making"

"That sounds perfect" I said kissing him