WHEN I'M WITH YOU

WHEN I'M WITH YOU: PART 8

"Stop being so dramatic Ty!" I heard Toby say as he placed his hand on my shoulder. I turned round and shoved it off.
"I'm sick and tired of it! You say all this stuff about how you want us to be together! This is harder for me than it will be for anyone else because of the family i'm being raised in and you won't even help me! So much for caring about me!" I yelled back at him. I heard a key turning in the door and the lock click but I ignored it.

"Tyler calm the fuck down!" Toby shouted. I then hit him. I balled my hand into a fist and hit him. It probally wasn't the hardest of punches, i'm pretty weak and seriously not a fighter, but I saw him wince in pain and his normally tanned jaw was red and lumpy. Without warning TJ had grabbed my hands and shoved me onto the floor. He looked seriously furious that i'd hit, I actaully started to regret punching him in the face.

"Tyler! Oh my god sweetie!" I heard my mother yelp then saw my father's large hands yank Toby off me.
"I will not tolerate violence in my house you know that fully well!" she cried, acting as if me and Toby were inflicting world war three on each other.
"What the hell is going on?!" My father boomed and I knew it was all over. Toby and I both stood up and nervously looked up at my dad who was waiting for our explaination, his arms folded sternly across his chest.
"Ask him" Toby said bluntly. My father gave Toby an extremely irritated look then turned to me.
"Want to tell me why I came home to find you two fighting like a pair of idiots?"
"TJ and I got into a disagreement" I said plainly.
"About what?" My father said coldly as his gaze darted between Toby and I.
"It doesn't matter it was just a stupid argume-"
"Tyler what's that on your neck?" My father demanded.

I turned to look into the mirror we had in our hallway. I turned my neck slightly, no it couldn't of been a hicky, a love bite or whatever you call them. I felt my whole body tense, "Uhh...well when me and TJ were fighting he must of-"
"Dont lie to me, I know exactly what that is!" My father screamed catching me completely off guard. I pushed past my mother and ran upstairs, yanking my suitcase out from underneath my bed. I didn't know where I was going to go, but I couldn't stay there, this wasn't the way I wanted to tell them! I wanted to have us maybe all sat down, discussing my feelings over dinner in a friendly enviroment. But no, the fact that I loved having sex with boys had to come out while everyone was full of rage and pure hate! Tears streamed down my face as I pondered long and hard over what I was going to do, I could barely see as I pulled my clothes out my wardrobe and shoved them into the suitcase. The last time I felt this helpless I was crying in the middle of a field with Toby infront of me, telling me that he was sorry. Why did he always have to be the cause of everything bad that happened to me!

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"This is your doing isn't it?!" Tyler's dad questioned. I was sitting in an armchair while he paced about infront of me angry as fuck. Tyler's mum was on the other side of the room on the sofa weeping into her hands.
"I don't know what you mean" I said calmly.
"You did this to my son! I knew there was something odd about you I could never put my finger on what it was but I never liked him being friends with you. You've disrupted him and lead him onto a path of evil!" his dad yelled bursting out into all this religious bullshit that I didn't care about. The only thing I cared about was the way he was screaming at me.

"Right..." I muttered standing up. I noticed Tyler poke his head round the door, I saw his suitcase next to him, the pain in his blood shot tear filled eyes and I couldn't stand it.
"The reason why me and Tyler got into a fight was because he wanted to tell people he was gay and I told him I didn't think it would be a good idea. He got angry because he trusted me, because he thought we had something special, because yes I am sleeping with your son. And yeah you might dislike it, but people don't choose to be gay. So either accept it or loose him forever" I said folding my arms and preparing myself for the second punch in the face I knew Tyler's dad wanted to inflict on me.
"You have lead my son into nothing but evil and sin!" he said, spitting out his words, making them sound evil and twisted.

"No. Here's what going on though. Your son. Gay. No ones lead him that way, no ones forced him, it's who he is!" I argued back.
"Listen, I love my son very much, and I will not have him making the wrong choices!" Ty's mum sobbed getting up and standing next to her husband.
"If you loved him you'd want him to be happy, and he can't be happy when he locks away who he really is! I'm sorry but I don't think Tyler's going to be safe here. So if you won't let him be himself then I guess your going to have to let him go."

"And what makes you think his life with you instead of his family will be so much better?" Ty's father said coldly.

"Because, even though I sometimes find it hard to show him, even though I hurt and upset him, maybe sometimes even lie to him, I really like your son" I paused for a second and shook my head, I then looked at them and confidently smiled, "No, I'm in love with your son! And there's nothing anyone can do about it." I said firmly. I then turned and walked over to the doorway where Ty was standing looking terrified. I pulled him out the door by his arm and lead him down the road. It was extremely cold out and we were both shivering violently. We walked and walked, heading in the direction of my house.

We were about ten minutes away from my street when all of a sudden Tyler let go of his suitcase, sat on the hard wet ground and sobbed. I crouched down next to him and stroked his back. "Tyler, come on, I know your upset but not here mate" I said gently lifting him back onto his feet. His arms wrapped tightly round my waist and he burried his face in my shoulder and cried loudly, "What the fuck am I gonna do!" he mumbled against me. The night suddenly felt even colder and darker.

"Well, seeing as my parents are away, were going to go back to mine and get you nice and warm. We'll figure out what to do then" I said reasuring him. He wiped his nose on his sleave and sniffed a little before we started walking again. "Oh and Tyler" I said, he looked up at me through red blury eyes, "cheer up, I mean how bad can it be? I'm here" I grinned at him. At first I thought he was going to get annoyed, but his face let go a smile and soon he was laughing warmly and so was I. His fingers slipped between my own and we swung our joined arms as we strolled towards my house.

"I think i'll take up on the going away with Kai and Eddie offer, could do with some time away from this annoying little town! By the way you sure you know how make yourself heard!" Tyler giggled as we both looked back on my little speach to his parents in the middle of his front room.
"Well you know me" I laughed back and Tyler chuckled quietly next to me, his bright smile lighting up his face.
"Oh...And I love you too" he said quietly.

I looked ahead and up, looking at the stars shining brightly above us. I squeezed Ty's hand gently, "I know" I whispered.