WHEN I'M WITH YOU

WHEN I'M WITH YOU: PART 8

Tyler, his face kept flashing in my head. I knew he wasn't at this party but I imagined him walking in, his innocent face crumbling with disapointment in front of my very eyes. Him going mad and badly injuring Aaron like he had Kyle, then storming outside before he broke down. I felt like I wanted to cry, I sat up and gently nudged Aaron off me. "What's wrong? Was I not doing it right, I haven't had much practice" Aaron said his eyes wide and upset. I placed my hand on his on his shoulder and he looked up at me, "No of course not, it was nice, and I mean your cute but...I really like someone else, and I always do shit like this. You seem nice but I know this other guy is into me for me, and if I keep sleeping with random people then I will have no chance with him" I muttered taking my hand off his shoulder and heading for the door. "Alright, well, that makes sense, see you around!" he called after me. I walked back out into the cold air and called a taxi. Did I just turn sex down?! My mind was fuzzy but I knew it wasn't the alcohol doing it. The taxi pulled up and a almost sprinted over and into to it. I need to get home and think about what I was going to do next...

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"Tyler sweetheart! Remember your father and I are going out in an hour!" my mother said overly cheerfully as she walked into my room. It was sunday afternoon, it was still light outside but I had the curtains drawn and the lights out.
"I know your not feeling yourself but a bit of sun will help ok?" she sighed opening my curtains and almost blinding me.
"Why are you going out so early?" I said squinting.
"Oh well the show starts at seven, were going to leave at four, you know what trains are like on a sunday! Plus were going to get a bite to eat before, I guess we won't be back till much later. James has gone to a friend's house to stay. There's some pasta, you know how to cook it. Remember to call if there's any problems!" she said, she treated me like I was about ten and I couldn't stand it. I wanted to break free from this bullshit fake life and happy family. I wanted to come clean about who I was.

For another half an hour I lay on my bed staring at the cieling. Deep in thought about who or what TJ had fucked at the party he went to last night. My stomach tied in knots and my heart burned just thinking about him with someone else. There was an extremely loud knock at the door, only one person knocked that rudely and it made my insides jump. I heard my mother opening the door, "Hi TJ!" I heard her say, faking that she was actaully pleased or happy to see him. "Hey, is Ty-ler in? I really need to speak to him" he said confidently. "Sure. Tyler, TJ's here to see you!" she called up the stairs to me. I was really debaiting on whether or not I was going to come down, I could of pretended I had fallen asleep. Slowly I slouched down the stairs. I felt slightly embarrassed when I realised I was in my pajamas and looked a total mess, but at the same time I wasn't here to impress him anymore.

"Tyler let me quickly talk to you" my dad commanded me and I walked into the kitchen with him. "Tyler, your a grown up now and I know I can't force you to hang round with certain people. You know how I feel about TJ, but I trust you to make the right choices when it comes to...people like him. I really would advise you to make sure he's gone before we get home, ok?" he hissed quietly so TJ couldn't hear him in the hall. He then walked back over to the front door and put his arm round my mum. "Have a good night boys!" he smiled at me and TJ, faking kindness like my mother had done. I rolled my eyes at how immature they were, if you don't like someone you should just say.

The door slammed and I was left in an awkward silence staring at TJ. "Take your shoes off by the door" I muttered and walked up the stairs. A few seconds later he was in my room with me. He stayed in the doorway and I sat on the bed and looked at him. "I came to give you this, you left it at mine last time you were there" he said and handed me over my jacket. I dumped it on the bed next to me and stared at him. "TJ in all the years i've known you you have NEVER returned something i've left at yours. I either notice it's missing and go round to get it myself or I find it the next time I come to your house. So why are you really here?" I questioned. TJ looked at the floor for a while, he took a deep breath then looked back to me, "Kai and Eddie are going away next week for a couple of days. Kai told me there's room for me and whoever I want to invite...You should come" he said, trying to smile at me. "You want me to come?" I said, looking at him bluntly. TJ looked at me and didn't say anything, the room was once again filled with uncomfortable silence until he finally pulled himself together and nodded.