WHEN I'M WITH YOU

WHEN I'M WITH YOU : PART 6

When I got home I sat in my room and thought about the feeling i'd gotten watching everyone together, I had this sudden urge to cry, but thats not me, I don't cry about anything, crying is for the weak. I went and stood infront of my mirror. I had loving parents, I could do whatever I wanted, sure I wasn't rich but when I needed money I was always lent it by mum or dad. I had the looks, the friends, the popularity, so what was it? Why did I have this feeling inside me, like I was missing something? I looked closely at myself, then smirked, "Your not lonely TJ, you have never wanted a deep meaningful relationship and you don't want one now" I said out loud to my reflection, reasuring myself that all was well and good.

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The next day I strolled into form, holding my head high, my bag on my back. "Hey, how comes you went yesterday?" Rose asked me as I took my seat next to Kai. "Just didn't feel all that great, thought I was gonna puke or something" I muttered, that was true to some extent. "Oh alright then, glad your feeling better now" she smiled. The gang starting talking about something but I wasn't really listening, I noticed Tyler was sitting in the corner of the room, away from the rest of us, but he wasn't alone. He was sitting opposite a boy named Codey Day, a guy who had come out to the whole school when we were about fourteen. He was a nice guy, decent looking, but why on earth was he talking to Tyler? I felt confusion and anger all mixed into one, but I had no idea why I cared. I watched them closer, Tyler was smiling, laughing at his jokes, like they'd been friends for ages. Though there was no body language to show that they were anything more.

At break we descided to sit out on the school field. We sat in our circle, I ended up being opposite Tyler, who was trying to look everywhere but at me while he ate his yoghart. I don't know why but I couldn't stop looking at his eyes, they were sky blue and shining today especially against the grey sky above our heads. I was staring, I didn't realise how much I was staring but when I came out of my little world I realised Tyler was looking at me. He tipped his head to one side and smiled at me, I grinned back and winked at him, making him chuckle. Maybe he was starting to forgive me and realise that the conflict between us wasn't worth it. I was about to say something to him when, "Well there you are!" Codey said, parking himself next to Ty. They both started talking quietly. The rest of the gang didn't seem bothered that all of a sudden this guy had taken so much interest in Tyler or that he had descided to sit with us. Maybe this was just an issue between me, myself and I.

"What?" I heard Codey laugh. I looked up to see Tyler watching him closely, they're faces weren't close enough for kissing, but still pretty close for two friends. "You've got something on your face" Ty said innocently. "Where!" Codey said. Tyler dipped his finger in his yoghart, then quick as a flash placed some on the tip of Codey's nose, "There!" Tyler chuckled. Codey mocked a suprised face, then whiped the yoghart off his nose, "Your going to pay for that!" he said frowing. The frown turned into a cheeky smile before he jumped on Ty and tickled him. Tyler started rolling about and shrieking with laughter while this Codey guy had his hands all over him. I felt something inside me, like a pit in my stomach, I didn't have to sit here and watch this. "Need a piss" I annouced, and started quickly walking off. I came to the conclusion that I didn't like how immature Tyler was acting and not the fact he was flirting with another boy.

At the end of the day the team and I were making their way in the changing rooms for practice. I've never had an attraction to another guy's body, to be honest the whole point I slept with Tyler and had a thing with Eddie was because I wanted to know how it felt and if it was better than sex with a girl. But there was something about watching Tyler getting changed for sport that really stirred something within me. For a while he stood there in just his snug little pants, talking and laughing at some of the other guy's jokes. What I loved about Ty was even though he was clearly a boy, his skin was soft, warm and smooth like a girls. And don't even get me started on his arse, it's amazing! So plump and full, but also very firm. Watching him standing there in his underwear made me just want to walk over, kneel behind him, pull his pants down and stick my tongue between his cheeks.