WHEN I'M WITH YOU

WHEN I'M WITH YOU : PART 6

I started pumping into him slowly, when I noticed something...I was looking at his shoulder and saw the large scar that he had gotten from his beating. The blood boiled inside me, I couldn't believe this had happened a week ago and i'd still done nothing! In the space of seven days Eddie could of easily been attacked again because I didn't make sure that Barry got the message not to mess with him. I hadn't even said a word to him and I saw him each day at school. I felt mad at Eddie for not letting me go after him when I wanted to, I was mad at myself for doing fuck all! I called myself a boyfriend yet I hadn't made sure he was protection from all who wanted to hurt him "Stop." My rhythem started getting rougher, I bit down on my lip, losing controll with my anger "Kai stop!". I had flashbacks of Eddie's face and mangled body as I opened the front door to find him a battered heap outside, the way he'd cried, the way I cried too and the fact that he was scared..."KAI STOP!" Eddie screamed. I had heard him say stop a few times before, but was too deep in thought to hear him. I looked down at him, his face was of pain and shock. "Why didn't you stop!" he sobbed as I pulled out of him.

When I looked down I realised there was a fair amount of blood on my cock and soon it was coming out of his abused hole too. I bit my lip, I hated myself for taking my anger out of him! I stood up and put some tracksuit bottoms on. "You really hurt me Kai..." he whispered, his face in his hands. I walked over and tried to touch his leg. Eddie looked at me in horror and forced my hands away, "No! Don't come near me Kai!" he cried. "Eddie, I didn't mean to, I just saw that scar Barry gave you, and it made me mad..." I sighed, trying to sit next to him. Eddie pulled his legs up and held himself, he pressed himself as far away from me as he could and wouldn't look at me. "Fuck sake, I fuck up every fucking thing!" I screamed and shot up off the bed and spun round to face him. "Stop yelling...you always yell..." Eddie sobbed. "No shut up! This is your fault! If you had just let me get Barry Goodman like I wanted to, I wouldn't be feeling guilty, I wouldn't be so fucking angry!" I screamed. I spun round and started pushing everything off my desk, some of the more delicate objects smashing onto the ground. "It's not my fault, you took your anger out through sex, and when I told you to stop you didn't, that's pratically rape Kai...don't ever blame me for that..." he cried.

"I DIDN'T, I'M NOT THAT SORT OF PERSON! WERE IN LOVE! YOU WANTED SEX!" I yelled and grabbed onto him, fear flooding his face. "Kai... get off me please..." he begged, tears spilling down his cheeks. When I saw those tears my anger calmed and little and I managed to let go off him. As soon as I did Eddie went to get his clothes and quickly put them on.
"You do something to me Eddie..." I whispered, trying to put a few things back on my desk.
"I know...and it's not healthy for either of us..." he said, pulling on his jumper.
"Where are you going Eddie..." I said, I could feel myself about to cry.
"I think we need a break from each other for a while Kai, your hearts full of too much revenge, i'm pretty sure this isn't the real you, I don't know if your prides been dented because you've done nothing since I got beaten up but..."
"Eddie, it's because I love you. Please we don't need a break, I just need help! I need to learn how to controll my emotions when i'm with you!" I replied, and when I said it it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Eddie tilted his head to one side and raised his brows at me, he then slowly removed his clothes again. "Let's go to sleep" he whispered, slipping back into my bed.

I nodded and removed my bottoms and climbed onto the bed. Eddie got behind me and rubbed my shoulders, "You get so tense" he whipsered, loosening the knots in my back with each rub of his hand. I turned my head slightly and he pressed his lips against mine, I was addicted to him...Some people smoke, drink or take drugs, but I needed him each and everyday, I needed him so badly. "I get inside your head don't I?" I heard Eddie hissing in my ear, his voice piercing through my skull and into my brain. I felt his hands on the side of my face, I turned to face him, staring right into his beautifully scary honey coloured eyes. "Tell me you love me Kai" he said softly. "I love you" I said, I could feel myself loosing it in his eyes. "What would you do for me Kai" he hissed again and once again his voice shot right through me. "I'd...i'd die for you Eddie..." I replied, like a soldier to his comander. He let out a laugh, it was meant to be cute, but I could hear the fact that he knew he had controll over me. "Would you self harm over me Kai? he said, staring at me harder. I just tilted my head to the side and smiled in awe of him, "Yes Eddie" I said, my mouth didn't seem to belong to me anymore.

Eddie grabbed a pair of scissors off my desk, "Show me!" he demanded, handing them to me. I didn't know if I was having some weird dream or not, but I grabbed the scissors and opened them. With the sharp blade I sliced across my arm, it stung and a few seconds later blood appeared and dripped down my arm. Eddie laughed, but this time it was different, I didn't like the way he laughed at me. "Right now stop, let's get into bed" he demanded, and I obeyed, putting the scissors down and turning off the light. I slid under the sheets with him and Eddie placed his head on my chest, "I can make you do, whatever I want" he giggled and stroked my stomach. "I love you Eddie, I won't hurt you ever again" I said, my head still spinning, I hadn't done anything with the cut, just left it softly weeping with blood. "I love you too Kai Kai" he whispered. About five minutes later he was asleep. Yes. Eddie loves me. Nothing and nobody will ever take him away from me, i'd kill myself over Eddie. He was everything! I wanted to cut myself again over him, I wondered why he'd made me do that, or if I had really cut myself. I didn't know what was real and what wasn't, I loved Eddie, but he was making me go mad...