WHEN I'M WITH YOU

WHEN I'M WITH YOU : PART 2

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It was nearing 2am, and only a small handful of people were left in the house. There were beer cans everywhere and a few broken bottles, but apart from that the house wasn't too wrecked. Me, Dan and Rose were putting some cans in a bin bag when Eddie and TJ walked in together.
"So, you fancy staying round tonight?" TJ said to Eddie.
"Why? Lauren wasn't satisfying enough for you?" Eddie said calmly but there was a hint of anger in his voice.
"Babe please, a man needs what a man needs" TJ grinned, not caring that he might of hurt Eddie.
"There's no way i'm fucking you now, let alone sucking your cock if it's been in some girl, i'll be over tomorrow, at like 1, okay?" Eddie said, with the anger gone and the cute half smile back, they kissed and he walked out the house. About ten minutes after Eddie left I decided I didn't really want to sleep over and hear about TJ's wild sex with Lauren. I told him i'd seen him on monday and said bye to the guys. My head was pretty fuzzy from the alcohol so I decided i'd walk home in the cold fresh air, it was only a half hour walk from TJ's house to mine.

I was strolling through the park, it was pretty cold as the wind blew on my bare arms. I saw someone sitting on the swings, I couldn't see their face, but when I saw the figure of the person I got a warm bubbly feeling in my stomach, and as I approached them the feeling got stronger. I sat on the swing next to him...
"Hey stranger" his beautiful soft voice was making me sweat, "You fallowing me?" I looked up at Eddie and he smiled a normal sweet smile. I could hardly breath, his gold eyes shone through the dark, he had a light to him which I longed to own. I got off the swing, stumbling a bit, how could a boy have this effect on me? I went to sit on the bench facing away from the swings, I stared across the empty field in front of me, going on forever into darkness. I heard soft footsteps and felt Eddie's hand stroke my shoulder as he walked round the bench to sit next to me.

"You never talk to me" he said softly.
"Yeah, because your TJ's boy."
"I've given him head a few times, no commitment, I'm only TJ's boy to you, if you want me to be." He glanced at me, raising his brows.
"I saw that you got annoyed when you found out he'd had sex with Lauren" I whispered. Eddie looked at me and shook his head as if he was trying to figure something difficult out. "I don't like being played, but I should of expected it from someone like him." He shivered, and I absent mindedly put my arm round him, I felt tingles in my skin.
"Is there anyone you like?" Eddie said, striking up conversation.
"I met someone a few days ago, their...beautiful" I whispered, staring with Eddie across the park.
"Do they know how beautiful you think they are?" he asked.
"Oh they know, how could they not, they must know how they make me feel!" I mumbled, breaking my stare across the field and looking at my feet.
"How do they make you feel?" Eddie said, softly snuggling into me.
"They're just like the wind, everything else moves when they're around..." I said breathlessly, "They look so delicate, I just want to hold and protect them forever."
"That's a beautiful thing to say, you must really care about this person, even if you have only known them for a few days" Eddie said, his breathing had picked up, he knew it was him, he knew, he knew!

We sat in silence for a while, the music of the wind around us. I wasn't cold, I wasn't jealous, I wasn't uncomfortable, I was just sitting here, with someone who made me feel so...right! And this moment was beautiful like Eddie, since the day I'd met him he made me feel on edge but now I felt peaceful. "You should tell him" Eddie said louder than we'd been speaking before, breaking the silence.
"Huh?" I said nervously.
"You should tell this person how you feel, what have you got to loose?" Eddie said, which reminded me of what my dad had said.
"Maybe I will" I said, holding Eddie closer than me, rubbing his arms to keep him warm. Eddie and Dad were right, the worst thing that could happen was he rejected me, and if so i'd just get on with life. As I said before girls just kind of threw themselves at me, I never actually went up to someone and asked them out, but there's a first time for everything! I was deep in thought when suddenly my arms felt empty. I looked up and Eddie was standing in front of me, "I'm gonna go home now" he said smiling at me, he turned and walked away from me.