permanent price ✷ alex karev

020. never is a promise

"never is a promise"
by fiona apple

"  you'll never see the courage i know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow the way that you glow
your presence dominates the judgments made on you
...
you'll never touch these things that i hole
the skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
you'll never feel the heat of this soul
my fever burns me deeper than i've ever shown to you
you'll say 'don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems'
you'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
but 'never' is a promise and you can't afford to lie
you'll never live this life that i live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
you'll never hear the message i give
you'll say it looks as though i might give up this fight
...
you'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
i don't know what to believe in,
you don't know who i am
you'll say i need appeasing when i start to cry
but 'never' is a promise and I'll never need a lie "

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"yesterday"
season 2, episode 18

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"are you sure you're ready to go back to work? there's no shame is staying home for a couple more days, elle. you had a pretty bad concussion." alex asked her as he got ready for work.

"i'm fine, alex, seriously. i hit my head, i didn't have brain surgery. plus, i want to get back to work. i miss it." she told him.

"okay, as long as you're sure that you're okay."

"i'm okay." she smiled, planting a soft peck on his lips. "but we're running late, so let's go."

"are the o.r.'s up and running?" dr. bailey asked the interns.

"uh, yeah, they're fully functional. uh, except there's some smoke damage to the corridors." cristina answered.

"how about you two? you guys fully functional?" bailey asked eleanor and meredith.

"i'm fine." meredith answered.

"me too, my ribs are still a little sore but the symptoms of my concussion have subsided." eleanor told her. "how's your husband doing?" 

"taking him home tomorrow." bailey answered. "if you need more time, there's no shame, shepherd. or grey, either of you." 

"that's what i said." alex piped up.

"and i said that i'm ready to get back to work." eleanor said, briefly turning to face alex.

"good, alright, then all of you, this is not a tea party, go save lives."

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"is that--" eleanor questioned.

"yes. it is." derek answered before she could finish.