If Only

Chapter 24

 Once upon a time there was a little girl who didn't have problems with boys and who spent her days sketching and laughing with her friends. She was invisible to the male species and she had no problem with it. Those who did see her would have the privilege of a date and maybe that would flower into something fun and exciting. The closer the privileged ones got the more a cocoon would form around them. They would be happy.

But one day the invisible one was noticed by three. She had problems choosing one and she felt for all three. She never tried forming a cocoon with her situation but what if she did try? What if she could for once keep the attention of all and still be happy.

"SIA!!!!!"

I was pulled out from my storyline musings by Hannah shaking the day-lights out of me. I was falling asleep and half dreaming weird stuff for the past half an hour. It was as if my life was mixing up with a fairy tale. My eyes were drooping shut but everytime that happened Hannah yelled out obscenities. Ugh! Tonight was not my night. A blind-date with an ex-creep (yes, I'm gullible), an almost super-hot make-out session with a real do-able guy and a no-show (in this case a never-heard-from-again) from a cute British guy I really wanted to hear from again for the past two days. I sighed and closed my eyes.

"Sia are you fvcking listening to me?"

"Hmm." I was sitting against the head board of my bed and was looking at Hannah pacing up and down the room. Skye was standing near my dresser on the other side of my room as far from me as possible. He had his arms folded and was looking at Hannah but his eyes kept shooting death-glares at me. Would I get to sleep tonight? Probably not! I wonder why Hannah was so worked up over this?! Daft much are we Si? Oh shut up. I sighed again. "Han calm down. It was just dinner."

"Si! Just dinner!", she stopped pacing and kept her back to me as I heard her sigh. Then she came to sit next to me on the bed and she looked worried and cornered, "Sia weren't you the one who said he was a creep. That no one could be so shy and then just land up confident and hot. What about the way his temper flares? What you told me about him Si... all I know is that you were right and he is bad news." I looked at Hannah, "It was one dinner."

"Do you like him?", Hannah asked looking at her lap and playing with her fingers. I looked at her wide-eyed. "No Hannah. Why would you ask me that?" I sat up a little more straight. She dismissed my question with a wave of my hand and continued, "Do you still think he is a creep?"

I opened my mouth to say yeah but closed it immediately. After tonight I had changed my view of Enzo drastically and he had been so chivalrous, it would be rude of me to say that I still thought badly of him and also I'd be lying.

Hannah looked to Skye after I didn't answer and Skye just shook his head. "Then um...", Skye started. It had been a while since he contributed to the conversation, "So who do you like then?"

"What?!", I was taken aback by his bluntness, "You can't ask me that. That's ..."

Hannah butted in before I could finish my statement, "That's a legitimate question. Answer it."

"Hannah!", I yelled. Ugh! Well I could answer but I was so confused. Did I like Enzo? And if I said I liked Skye? What happens to my whole idea of setting him up with Cameron? And what about Kai? I really wanted to get to know that boy better!

"Answer the question Sia!", Skye said. I looked him dead in the eye and said nothing. "Well it's obvious.", Hannah started, "It's..."

"Skye."", Hannah said at the same time I said, "Kai."

"Kai?", Hannah looked at me as if I had grown another head. I sighed. I used Kai as my ticket out. I think I made the matter worse.

"Who the hell is Kai?", Skye yelled from his corner. Hannah looked at him and then back at me. "I'll give you guys some space.", she said as she left my room.

"Sia.", Skye said and from the corner of my eye I saw him move towards me.

I sighed. Might as get this over with. "What Skye?"

"What is going on?", he said coming over to me and holding both my arms at my sides.

"Nothing.", I said shrugging his hands off of me.

"What happened to us?", he said coming to put his hands on me again. I put my hand up to stop him and walked to my vanity mirror.

"Maybe for you there was something but there wasn't anything for me. We were always just friends.", I said. Yeah maybe this will keep him at bay.

"Bullshit. That is bullshit Sia and you know it.", he said, his voice low as he stood behind me and looking at me in the mirror as I stared back at him.

"Skye..."I said sighing and looking down. He wasn't making this easier. Should I tell him I don't want to be with him cause I can't handle this drama? And he has already been with Cam on a date...how can I talk him back now? It would make me seem so bitchy. Plus when did Skye get so clingy? "...there really wasn't anything here.", I said softly, willing him to believe my lies.

"So you lead me on...", he said angrily walking towards the door.

What the...? "Whoa...Skye we were close but don't you ever say I led you on.", I said standing with my hands on my hips. The nerve of this boy.

"What was all the flirting and the kissing and the...", he started but I didn't let him continue.

"Oh shut it Skye... even if there was anything, you started it. Don't you dare blame me for anything.", I so wanted to bitch-slap him when I was saying this.

"Don't be such a bitch.", he said, his face passive. What did he just say?!

"What did you call me?", I couldn't believe Skye was saying this, granted I was hurting him purposely but he was taking this shit to the next level.

 "Sia...You...", he said looking conflicted for a second before continuing, "Why the fvck are you acting like you have multiple personalities? You remind me of Ash and her bitchiness! Maybe Ash was right about you." I was taken aback. Why would he?

"Just because you can't make up your mind...", he was saying but I didn't want to hear anymore.

"Get out.", I said while choking back my emotions. I never knew it would come to this. Skye's eyes widened, maybe suddenly realizing the damage he just did.

"Sia...Si, I'm...", Skye began walking towards me.

"Shut up and get out.", I yelled shoving him out my bedroom door with all my might. After that I kept pushing him till I reached the main door to the apartment.

"Come on Si.", he said trying to get back into the apartment.

"Get the fvck out Skye and I never want to see your fvcking face again!", and with that I slammed the door on his face and stomped back to my room passing a baffled Hannah. I didn't give a shit anymore.

I walked into my room and slammed the door, pressing my back to it, I slid down to the floor. I couldn't hold it back anymore. It hurt. I liked Skye. Everyone knew that. And Hannah knew why I put an end to it to. Why the hell did he have to ask? Why the hell couldn't he see passed my lies? Why the hell did he say those things? This was something broken now. He took the thing that hurt me the most and stabbed me in the back with it. Enzo was a creep yes but Skye was worse. He was a heart-breaker and this was the end and Skye and me.