"I knew that would happen, that's why I came." Aniya habang nasa kawalan ang kanyang mata.
His side profile really sent me butterflies in my stomach. Kahit itong magkatabi lang kami ay halos hindi na ako makahinga. My heart is beating so fast I'm afraid he could hear it. Mamaya kakantiyawan na naman ako nito, e.
We were sitting on the concrete rectangular bench just in front of the camping tent. Hinayaan na muna kami nina Hanzo at Oscar na makapag-usap. Tinutukso pa nga ako bata dahil narinig niya akong nagsumbong kay Doom. Pakialamerong palaka talaga. Babanatan ko 'yun mamaya.
"I thought that would be the end of me." Bulalas ko. I positioned my hand on top of my chest, trying to calm my heart.
I don't know what causes my heart to beat this fast, is it because of what happened yesterday or because I'm seating beside him.
Wala pa rin siyang pinagbago. His style didn't change. The way his hair drape on his forehead. How his forehead creased while thinking of something and how his brows meet into a fine line like he did when I'm disobeying his orders.
Wala sa sariling hinawi ko ang magkadikit nitong kilay gamit ang aking dalawang daliri. He looked startled as I was too.
"Y-You look mad, that's why I-I... I thought.. sorry." Iyon lang nag nasabi ko dahil masyado yata akong na-overwhelm sa titig niya na hindi agad ako nakaisip ng tama.
He scanned my face, trying to read my expression so I looked away. I'm embarrassed. I feel loke I'm about to cry again. Bakit ba ako nagkakaganito kapag siya na 'yung kaharap ko? Is it because he's my safe place? I can only feel it with him. Feeling ko kapag kasama ko siya nakakapagpahinga ako. It's him that I want to see at the end of the day after such a long and exhausting day. Why am I so sensitive when he's beside me?
Parang noon lang, halos itaboy ko siya't pagmumurahin. Did he bewitch me? Is this some kind of spell? If it is, this spell that I am under, I don't want to break away.
Hindi ko namalayang pinupunasan na niya pala ang mga luha kong lumandas sa aking pisngi.
"You always looked like a baddie when you're in front of me, why the face?" Para bang niyayakap ng kanyang banayad na boses ang aking puso. I feel like I'm melting by his words.
"Pinapaiyak mo ako, e." Pagbibiro ko pa.
Yumuko ako at pinagmasdan ang aking suot na sapatos.
"I told you that your life depends on me. It felt as though you don't trust me enough." He talked with his low-pitched voice na para bang may pinipigilang emosyon.
I couldn't see nor read it, but I can definitely feel it. He's disappointed. Ever since we made a pact, masyado na akong naging dependent sa kanya. Ayoko lang na palagi ko siyang tinatawag dahil sa pride ko rin. Hindi ko man alam kung ano ang naging kwento niya bago pa ako pumasok sa larawan pero alam ng puso ko na mabigat ang kanyang pinagdaanan. We share the same pain. He knows about mine. But little di I know about his.
"I-it's not what you think it is..." Huminga ako ng malalim dahil parang pinipiga ng husto ang puso ko sa aking naririnig mula sa kanya. "Nahihirapan pa rin akong magtiwala. I grew up being self-reliant kaya mahirap para sa akin ito."
The cold winds have swept my hair while my heartbeat can be heard so loud when he looked at me with his sad eyes.
"But you needed me, right?" Halos mabasag ang kanyang boses sa pagkakataong iyon.
Nagulat ako nang tinanong niya ako ng ganoon. I never expected him to ask me that question. Ako ang may kailangan sa kanya. I will die if not for him. Why is he questioning about his worth right now?
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Hello Doom
Fantasy[ON-GOING] When Asha Buenavella turned 18, she could only wish for one-- to finally end the days of her life. She was fed up with being unlucky and what life had in store for her, sufferring. Will she finally able to achieve peace now that Doom, th...
