Why did you leave me? Soukoku ff english version

Chapter 9 The letter

*the contents of the letter *

Dear Dazai,

If you read this letter, something happened to me and I sent Daira to you. You must know, the moment I write these lines, I am holding Daira in my arms for the first time.
And I think you should know.
Do you remember the week before you left the mafia and me without saying a word? I felt bad and that day I wanted to tell you but you never came home. It's been nine months now and I've been officially dead for eight  and pretend to be my own cousin. Nakahara Miho.
Seven months ago I was taken in by a nice couple who take good care of me.
I'll say it right away:
I will never forgive you for leaving me alone when I needed you the most. And yet I think you should know: at this moment I am holding my daughter in my arms for the first time, only her father is not here. Don't even know she exits.  You may never receive this letter, but if you hold it in your hands then Daira will be with you and I probably won't. Then I ask you to get up from your butt and take care of her like a real father.

Yes, you are the father of Daira and since you didn't take care of her when she was little, please do it now.

You must know that I have turned into a woman with the help of a gifted person and Daira will never see me as a man and I will not tell her anything else. I think you will be able to decide for yourself when she is old enough for the whole truth, but I ask you to tell her. No lies or euphemisms. Tell her that you left me without another word, you must have had your reasons. Please tell her that I will always love her, even if I am no longer there.

The other letter is for them. If it is not possible, please give it to her on her 18th birthday.

In this letter you will find her birth certificate etc. (Naturally fake)

I don't know if the mafia is still on my heels, but I think I'm save.

Please take good care of Daira and even though I hate you, I would like to thank you for the best thing that could have happened to me in my life, this little creature that looks so fragile.

Daira, I love you.

Dazai, I will never forgive you.

All love, the person who trusted you and loved you,

Nakahara Chuuya

*End of letter*

There was silence in the room for a while, then Yosano said in a low voice, "I don't think we should have read it. Atsushi, you were right."

Daira looked around with wide eyes. "What does all this mean? My mommy is Chuuya and my dad is..." Her eyes widened: "Mom is in great danger, isn't she?" When no one answered, she began to tremble and her eyes filled with tears. Atsushi quickly hugged her tightly. After a short pause, Tanizaki said, "Did I understand that correctly? Dazai was in the mafia!". Everyone says to Ranpo, but he just nodded. "However, he seems to have left six years ago without a word.  He even left his boyfriend behind. I wonder what happened. In addition, the relationship of the two seems to have been a secret.

Just as Atsushi was about to say something, the door was thrown open and Kunikida rushed in. "Yosano," he yelled , "we need your help!" Dazai stepped through the door behind him. There was an unconscious person hanging in his arms and when everyone looked closer, they realized that there was a red-haired man in Dazai's arms. He was smeared with blood from top to bottom and looked like he was badly injured.

"Mommy?" asked Daira anxiously. Dazai looked over at her and said, "Don't worry, everything will be fine.!".

Yosano, who was already on her way to her infirmary, shouted over her shoulder: "Hurry up and bring him to me!". Dazai immediately walked on and followed Yosano out through the double door.

Everyone else turned to Daira who asked: "Mommy will get well again, right?" "Yes, of course," Kunikida replied. Then Naomi asked him, "What happened?"