Snippets

Infatuation In The Shadows

I saw you from afar
I wanted to reach out
Yet I couldn't

You said "hi"
One fateful day
Didn't think much about it
But why do I lie?

I loved how you talk
Of things and people you love
Of what haunted you
And things you couldn't talk about

I loved how mysterious you seem to be
But open to some you deemed worthy
You said we're friends but I still don't know
How you look, how you walk, how you think of things

You tell me about them whom you feel deeply for
I know about them more than they could ever know
You couldn't bring yourself up to confess
Of your yearning, of your limerence

You tell me these without knowing that whenever you do
Tiny pinpricks keep on hurting me, too

I can never tell you how I adore
Your deep knowledge of the world, the stars
The beauty of the unknown

I can never tell you how you are imperfect
How you are not seeing what I'm seeing
How you can be crass and hurtful

But I let you talk about the planets anyway
Of the magnificent and magestic animals
Of beasts and myths and legends abound
I let you talk of your sorrows
I let you talk of the wonders the loves of your life do  to you
How a little music, a little song, a little word remind you of them

I let you talk and I listen
And I laugh
But deep inside I hurt

We might really be just friends
You can never see me as more than that
I am but a stranger only a while ago
Now, you let me in even just a little
And for me, this will do