Hayaat ( completed )

Sidharth

hey my lovely family....

this is not story related...just my feelings...till now i just hide in my heart...today wanna disclose infront of you...plz try to read if have time...n this just my feelings... Don't judge me💕💕💕

this is like i am talking to sidharth 🙈

so hii sidharth, ❤️
it's been one year....sabko ye kehte hue ki you're not with us....but only few knows that ur here only.... obviously your mom...sisters... family n Shehnaz.....this people very well know that ur here...

actually m bhi....

umm...no i am not dumb...i feels like I am mature enough...to u know handle things....

but honestly wanna accept....that...i still don't want to believe that ur not with Shehnaz....

she is doing everything alone...she is strong but may she lost her everything wid you... seriously I don't know what bond u guys share after bb13....but jitna dekha hai...jaana hai...usse bas itna mehsoos kiya that you both are madly in love....

n i love ur love

that's why....still think...ho hi nahi sakta ki wo gaya...he is still here...kuch toh hai...aa jayega kahi se toh bhi....

fir mind start to give answers....like stupid ab tak aa jata...zuth thodi hoga wo sab media m bata ya hua....

n eyes shed tears....

n again next moment the situation is same... again start to listen to my heart...that always says...wo yehin hai...

i know it's weird...that I didn't meet you or saw you personally.... actually i want to be honest that I like only sidnaaz....

neither single Sid nor single naaz

just in love with sidnaaz...

but still I behave like i live with you guys n that's why i feel your happiness is my n your sadness is also mine

sidnaaz is the only reason I am here...as a reader and writer....

N wanna thanks you today...i don't know where you are....but accept my thanks.... thank you for giving me amazing family here.....

because of you i meet this lovely people here...who equally are mad for sidnaaz like me.....

you know hum bas imagine karke khush ho jate hai...

i know ajeeb hai...but hum...isme bhi khush hai...

like itne ki bas apas me imagine karke has lete hai... enjoy kr lete hai ki ... ha Sid bhi aisa krta....wo bhi aisa hi hai....

here we togetherlly enjoy ur bond with shehnaz

we togetherlly miss you....

wo toh bas kehne ki bate hai ki dil me jo hote unko miss nahi krte...n all...but jinpe bit ti hai bas wahi jante hai...kisiko yad karna kya hota...words me koi express nahi kr pata ki miss karna kya hota hai...

n for your fans this is hard ha boss you have to accept.... because family n Shehnaz ke pass reason hai...haq se ro sakte hai yad karke...but agar hum ro de...toh family n log bas yehi kehte hai....itna kya bura lag raha....kabhi mile bhi ho kya usko...

they don't know na what sidnaaz matters to us....

n for me... sidnaaz is bliss... because i saw your n Shehnaz bond in BB when I am going in very worst phase of my life....

n i used to smile n enjoy little just because of you n Shehnaz....

n i think... that's why I fell for you guys...

n i will always love my Sidnaaz...

i really wanna hate this date....want to remove from calendar....

it's like i am crying right now but..... forget it

honestly sidharth i am sacred to go for job tomorrow morning...i just wanna sit at home silently do nothing...not even open social media....waha Jake aur ro dungi.... isliye just ek jagah baithi rahu...that i want..but..

just wanna pray to god ki jaldi khatam ho din...n that's it...

freak sometime I also wonder how I like this much to sidnaaz...

but yaha pe aake pata chala ..that I am not only one who is mad for them....so many are here like me...

n that's why I feel this is safe place to talk with you....

here people will understand my conversation with you....

because they are also Sidnazian like me...

so now enough of crying n all... don't wanna think again n again that this is bad day....

whatever....

my god definitely think something best... because unhone kaha hai...koi bhi chiz bewajah nahi hoti iss duniya m...

ye jo bhi hua wo bhi kisi reason se hua....

n i trust him ke...jitna liya hai...usse dugna lauta bhi denge wo hum sabko....tum bat karna agar wo dikhe tumhe sidharth

lastly wanna say I will be sidnazian forever...n will love you always....n support your naaz

bye naaz ke Sid

thanks guy's who come till this line by reading....aap sab bhi sidharth ko thanks bolna meri taraf se aur ek bar ❤️...

itna best writer bana diya that i write 800 + words in flow flow....

woww ... i like it...( in Shehnaaz tone (◔‿◔) )

lastly wanna request you plz pray for him n his family n for our naaz...she is shining i know...but bas muze lagta hai that she misses him alot...just not showing... I don't know... don't wanna judge her ....just my feelings...

luv u all...try to stay happy... positive

trust in God...n his timings..❤️❤️