Falling for my team mate

I just need time

*Jess POV*

After I had time to cool off and got bandaged up I decided I should probably talk to Leah. I have no idea how this is about to go but it hurts a lot that she didn't believe me when she hadn't even heard my side of the story.

I walk into her room and it seems like she's calmed down too. She's sat on the bed on her phone, looking at our pictures on instagram, although she won't admit this.

Leah- hi baby

Jess- hi, I think we need to talk

Leah- we do. I'm so sorry that I didn't believe you

Jess- you didn't even give me a chance to tell my side of the story

Leah- but when given the chance you didn't want to tell me, you just walked away

Jess- it doesn't matter now. It's happened and you believed her over me. She's a liar Leah that's what she does

Leah- what do you mean?

Jess- nothing it's not about her right now

Leah- Jess, tell me. I need to understand the situation

Jess- Leah, Lauras my ex. We played for rival teams when we were together but we were both in Manchester so it didn't matter.

Leah- you didn't tell me that. You never even said that she was your ex

Jess- because of the story that comes with it

Leah- please tell me. I want to be there for you

*TW- MENTAL HEALTH AND SUICIDE*

Jess- she was abusive, but not physically. Only mentally. She would belittle me and tell me that I was worth nothing. She seems fine with everyone else but behind closed doors she ruined my life. I developed depression when I was with her and the things she would say made it worse. I got so low that I started to hurt myself, like I did today and at one point it got so bad that I didn't wanna be here anymore so I did try to end it. It didn't work but it did happen. After that we broke up. This was 2 years ago. I haven't been in a relationship since because I'm scared Leah, I don't want that to happen again and today when you didn't even ask me about it, it really hurt that you had so little trust for me.

Leah- Jessie I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I do trust you I promise I do. I was just upset that you'd said those things about me but now I know that wasn't you.

Jess- but you believed that it was at the time Leah

Leah- I know and I'm sorry for that. I really didn't know what to believe and now I know the whole story it makes me feel sick to know that I believed her over you. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me.

Jess- I just need time Leah. I think we should take a break

Leah- are you sure that's what you want?

Jess- I think it's for the best.

I get up and start to walk away. I don't want Leah to see the tears that are about to start falling from my eyes. As I walk away I hear her whisper something that she thought I didn't hear.

Leah- I love you Jess

I say back in my head so she didn't hear "i love you too Leah, more than you know" It took me by surprise because weve not actually had that moment yet where we have told each other we love each other. it also tipped me over the edge so I went to find Ella and Georgia who were thankfully together when I found them.

Ella- how did it go

Jess- not good

Georgia- what happened *hugs*

Jess- I told her, i told her everything. about Laura, about the depression, the self- harm, the attempt. I know that it needed to be said and i feel so terrible because of how bad she feels but she needed to know. i just dont think she trusts me, from today, she didnt even ask me about it. she couldve asked me about the messages and I would have told her they werent me but then i dont think she would have believed me anyway. "the proof is in the pudding". she set it up to make it look like that was actually me, i get why it was so believable

Ella- Jess no. you cant talk like this. you and Leah will sort this out. she does trust you, if laura didnt make it look so bloody believable then none of this would have happened.

Georgia- Jess she trusts you with her life, she loves you so much. this is not going to break you

Jess- it already has, me and Laura were together for a year and half, she knows how i type, how i say things she knew exactly what to do to break me and Leah up, guess it worked, congratulations to her

Ella- Jess what do you mean it worked?

Georgia- please tell me you havent broken up?

Jess- I told her I needed a break, but I dont know whether she will take me back

Ella- if she really loves you, as much as we think she does, she will take you back

Georgia- youre gonna be okay girl, we got you

Jess- thank you girls, you have no idea how much I appreciate you

Ella- we love you Jess, we always will

Jess- i love you guys too

about an hour later it was dinner time, Leah was sat on a table with Beth, Lucy and Keira. I didnt sit with them, as much as I wanted to. I sat on a table on my own, Georgia and Ella are getting food right now whilst I sat on my phone. Lucy and Keira walked over to me and started talking.

Jess- if you're here to have another go, I don't want to hear it

Keira- actually, we came to say sorry.

Lucy- yeah Beth filled us in on all the details about how Laura was making it all up and how we were in the wrong for having a go at you

Keira- yeah we got a stern talking to from her, believe me *small laugh*

Jess- *smiles* but wait how did Beth know? I havent spoken to her all afternoon?

Lucy- erm, I guess Leah filled her in, anyways were really sorry about what we said. i hope you can forgive us

Kiera- really sorry Jess, i knew you wouldnt actually do that

Jess- thanks guys, i appreciate it

They get up and leave, i hear more footsteps coming towards me but when i look up its still not Georgia and Tooney, its Beth

Jess- alright Meado

Beth- you seem better than you did earlier

Jess- as good as I can be

Beth- im so sorry, Leah told me what happened

Jess- what exactly did she tell you

Beth- that Laura is jealous of your relationship so shes done this to try to break you up and that you and Leah got into a fight which ended in you both taking a break from each other. Im sorry, she loves you you know

Jess- yeah everyone keeps telling me that *small laugh*

Beth- theres that laugh we missed. its going to be okay, take the time you need, she'll wait for you

Jess- how do you know?

Beth- she's my best friend, i know her as well as G and Tooney know you

Jess- okay okay I believe you

Beth- exactly, you know where I am if you need anything, just drop a text.

Jess- thank you Beth, really, i appreciate it

Beth- anything for you *winks*

Jess- *laughs*

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