Crazy In Love With The Male Lead - ON HOLD

CHAPTER 39

CHAPTER 39.

I TOOK a deep breath before I stepped inside Lucas' condo unit. He said that he's gonna be here so I drive straight here without a second thought after processing the papers for the construction of my shop. Mayroon na akong lupa at plano para doon. Ang kulang na lamang ay ang pagbuo nito. I want to tell this to Lucas excitedly. But the way things are still going on between the two of us, hindi ako makahanap ng tiyempo.

"Hey." Pilit kong pinasigla ang aking tono. It was just the other day when I pleaded Kyle and Fred to talk to Lucas and to clear his misunderstandings. But then, hindi ko rin sigurado kung anong nangyari pa pagkatapos niyon.

Fred said that it went peacefully and that Lucas accepted our reason. Nandoon rin si Kyle at ganoon rin ang sinabi niya. Ang hindi ko lang maintindihan ay kung bakit ngayon lang nagparamdam muli sa akin si Lucas. I was expecting him to at least call me afterwards. But that didn't happen. Tila mas lalo lamang na lumala ang pagiging uncontacted niya. He didn't reply to my texts either. Hindi makuhang tanggapin na parang bigla niya nalang gustong putulin ang ugnayan namin.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko at pinilit na hindi maiyak nang makita ko siya. He is sitting in a single couch while reading a book. He looked at me coldly.

"Have a seat." Itinuro niya ang kaharap na couch na may kalayuan sa kanya. I gaped at him unbelievingly. My teeth gritting in rage.

Why does he speak like I'm some kind of work now?

"I don't want a seat, I want an explanation, Lucas." Matigas na sabi ko habang matiim siyang tinitingnan. Pinagkrus ko ang aking braso para hindi niya mapansin ang mga nakayukom kong kamao.

He sighed and looked at me unamused. He tilted his head before shaking it with unbelieving expression.

"You're telling me to explain? You aren't in the position to demand me anything." Malamig niyang sabi. I bit my lips, suppressing a painful sigh.

I can feel almost feel tears falling from my eyes. I miss him so much but I can't even touch him. Just because he's being so pain in the ass right now!

"Lucas, if this is about how I meet up with Frederick, I told you, we're just friends. Why can't you trust me?" I started to sob. I can't understand myself, I it's like something is stabbing my chest. Lucas don't look any concerned towards me. If this is still the Lucas I loved, he would have started to console me right now. Even though he's so stiff and awkward as hell.

"I've never trusted you." He coldly replied shattering my heart in the process. Why is he being so difficult?

Ito na ba? Dito na ba magtatapos ang panandaliang kaligayahang binigay sa akin?

Is it because I'm not a real character in this story? Or is it because I'm really not his destined one? Or is it both?

Whatever the reason is, I feel so fucking stupid for crying. Have I really became fragile and emotional to this point? And the jerk that's causing me pain doesn't even bother to look guilty at all. I steeled myself and walked straight near him. I gritted my teeth again and forcefully swung my right fist to his face. He didn't try to dodge and received it willingly instead. I thought I would feel better after I hit him but my heart clenches more at the sight of him.

"Fuck you for making me cry." I stood up and wiped my face. I closed my eyes for a bit to calm my nerves.

This won't do. We won't be able to have a decent conversation this way. Mabuti pa sigurong pakalmahin ko muna at ihanda ang sarili ko bago siya puntahan ulit. Maybe after that, Lucas won't be act as indifferent as now. Maybe time is all we need. Baka pagkatapos ng ilang araw, magkaayos na ulit kami.