The Crave

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WARNING RIGHT NOW THIS CHAPTER WILL CONTAIN HIGH TALK ABOUT EATING DISORDERS AND SELF HARM AND ABUSE IF THAT COULD TRIGGER YOU PLEASE SKIP IT 

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I woke up and got ready for school while Aidon was downstairs making coffee for us before he headed out for work. Meanwhile, I'm taking a Devils shower as I would call it while Scott was you guessed it sleeping 

I got dressed and put on a blue blouse and a black skirt and black sandals and headed downstairs to talk to aidon I searched the kitchen and living room Aidon was nowhere to be found.

Might as well get me coffee I'm going to need it I have a big-ass Psychology test today after all

there was a note sitting next to the coffee pot

''Hey princess work called there Was an emergency meeting I had to run see you at work ;)''

An emergency meeting at 7 in the morning I wonder what it's about?

I made myself a cup of coffee and off I went to school

The test was an hour and a half long mainly questions on what diagnoses would go with what and us having to write a story out of the words which was difficult I admit 

I didn't feel like staying the rest of the day there was nothing new we were learning in English or science anyways I decided to go to IHOP because I was really craving strawberry pancakes and plus I haven't treated myself in a while

The waiter came over he looked like he was in his 30s he had a small breed 

''What can I get you to drink?'' 

''Just water please'' I said shyly because I'm not used to going out to eat by myself 

''Good choice, do you know what you want or do you need time'' he said with the straightest face I had ever seen

''Umm yea could I have the strawberry pancakes with whipped cream please''

''Woah don't you think that's too much to be eating?''

''What do you mean?'' I started panicking 

''Just saying you need to lose it not gain it that's all''

before he walked away I stopped him

''Actually your right I'm going to leave you can cancel the order''

he was staring at my tits the entire time

shit, I didn't know that I was showing that much was I maybe I'm overreacting?

I quickly ran to my car and closed the door reminding myself what my uncle did when I was younger 

Flashback start;

uncle- Pumpkin you need to lose weight you're getting fat and I need you to be skinny for me if not I will have you sleep on the floor with no  blankets with nothing but a bra and underwear until your parents get back and plus your not going to get any men when your older if you're like this

Flashback over;

Fuck I was just starting to get over those words 2 years ago even tho he died when I was 17 which was 5 years ago from a heart attack thank fucking god he did I used to not eat and if i did eat anything it would be a salad mom and dad  never suspected a thing they just thought I was trying to eat healthy and never found out he did anything to me because he would always threaten me if I dared to say a word so I kept quiet