Arken Needs

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“Woah, woah, as far as I know that's not very right, I mean, you like him, we all know that, but what if you didn't? And even tho you like him, doesn't mean he can do anything to you without your consent. That's assault.” Rio said what exactly I've been thinking for the past three days. Napabuga ako ng hangin.

“Sino naman ang nagtanggal ng karapatan sayo na magalit dahil doon? That's yours and Arken business, no one has the right to disrespect you, Rei. Is it Harper? What did he do?” Matalino si Jio at agad niyang napagtagpi-tagpi ang nangyayari.

“He watched me and Arken while we're doing the nasty, he even took a picture of us.” Napamura silang tatlo dahil sa pag amin ko.

“What the fuck? That's so weird, that is another level of creepiness!” Maarteng sigaw ni Rio. Inirapan ko siya. Arte magsalita ampota.

“Why did he fucking do that?” Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni Kline.

“Sa pagkakaintindi ko, hindi niya naman plano pero nakita niya kami, and,” Natampal ko ang noo ko. “He likes me, he said he enjoyed watching me getting fucked.” Pahina nang pahina ang boses ko dahil sa hiyang nararamdaman.

“Tangina, ibang klase.” Mura ni Kline. Napailing silang tatlo.

“They're still kids, but that doesn't justify what they did, Harper is another thing, Arken is also another deal. They both like you but they also both crossed the line, the only difference here is you like Arken.” Jio muttered. Hindi agad ako umimik at inintindi ko ang sinabi niya.

“They're already eighteen, already in legal age but not completely adult, they're still doing mistakes, Reihan, ano bang ikinagagalit mo ngayon? Is it because Harper disrespected you because he thinks it's okay because of what Arken did to you before?” Tanong ni Kline. Napaisip ako. Galit ako kay Harper because he was so unreasonable and he humiliated me, disappointed ako kay Arken dahil sa ginawa niya saakin noon, but we already talked about it before, to be honest, hindi ko talaga alam ang dapat kong maramdaman ngayon.

“I don't know, I still like Arken, I'm confused and angry about Harper, I know he's a kid.” I honestly said. Tumaas naman ang kilay ni Jio.

“You can talk to Arken, you know, sa pagkakaalam ko, Arken is a matured one, he'll realized his mistake if you tell him and if he really loves you, he can do better.” Naitaas ko ang tingin ko kay Jio. Arken already said he'll do better for me, he said he wanted the best version of himself for me. Napailing ako at natawa habang naluluha. I miss him. I miss him so much. I'm so stupid to doubt his feelings for me because of his past mistakes.

“I think I love Arken,” Wala sa sarili kong pag-amin. Hindi naman agad sila nagsalita.

“We know,” Si Kline. Nilingon ko siya.

“Talaga?” Tawa ko. He scoffed at me.

“Halata naman noon pa, kala mo lang siguro mahal mo siya bilang kapatid, pero wala namang ganong magkapatid, pre, naghahalikan sa pisnge? Binabantayan lagi isa't-isa pag gumagala tas nagseselos sa tropa? Sobrang nag-aalala kapag nasusugatan ka kahit galos lang? Baliw.” Singhal niya. Napangiwi naman ako. Ngayon ay nare-realize ko na sobrang in denial ko pala talaga dati, ipinapahalata na't lahat saakin ni Arken pero hindi ko pa rin nakuha. Napailing ako at naisip ulit si Harper.

“Si Harper, sa tingin niyo, pinagttripan lang kaya ako nun?” Kunot-noo ko. Binatukan naman ako ni Jio.

“Tanga, pangit naman ng trip niya kung ganon.” Si Jio.

“May gusto nga sayo, siguro medyo nabaliw kasi manhid ka 'e tapos nakita ka pa niyang ganon kay Arken, selos yun, nasaktan yung ego kasi hindi ka niya nakuha.” Parang siguradong sabi ni Rio. Napaisip naman ako. Bakit ba nila ako nagugustohan? Sabi rin saakin ni Liam na baka may gusto din saakin si Elizer noon, tapos nanjan pa si Gaston na umamin din saakin last week. Hindi ko sila gets, marami namang ibang magagandang babae at binabae jan, bakit ako pa?