Love is Blind

Chapter Thirty-Seven: All This Noise

            “You’ve always been a good kid,” she says and then I hear her heels click leaving me.

            “Oh Payton congrats on Valedictorian,” Mrs. Reed says to Payton and I smile. I am so proud of Payton for accomplishing this; she is amazing being able to keep up great grades while dealing with everything that she is.

            “Thank you Mrs. Reed,” Payton’s sweet innocent voice says and I smile brightly. The loud sound of the bell ringing fills my ears and it is ten times louder than it was before. The sound of loud voice and footsteps enter the room quickly. I release a sigh here goes nothing, I think as gently rest my elbow onto the table and then my head in my hand.

            The talking is so loud in my ears and I can catch pieces of conversations here and there, I never thought this would be so distracting. I find it hard to really concentrate on what Mrs. Reed is saying; this is the first time being in a room with so many people. I reach up running my hand through my hair tugging lightly.

            This is how my next three classes play out also and my head is seriously beginning to hurt. I just want to return home and curl into my bed room and hide. Who was I kidding I am not ready for this?! This was a stupid idea. The other reason I am struggling with this is because I can hear the other kids. The kids who use to kiss the ground I walk on are now mocking me. They think I cannot hear the awful and cruel words that they spout out. The horrible comments they make about my blindness. Many are calling me special Ed because I am blind. Some even think it’s like a sickness. There are others who seem so wrapped up in their own word they see my blindness as some major differing flaw. There is so much judge-y-ness and criticism and to make matters worse not one of my old friends have spoken to me. I have been counting the loud bells so when the next one rings I know it is the lunch one.

            “Ready for lunch Reece?” Payton’s angelic voice asks me and I nod my head.

            “Yeah,” I say I push myself up from the desk and grab my cane. The feeling of a warm hand reaching mine and intertwines with my own hand. I feel the sparks that are only ever caused by Payton, my angel. She pulls me along with her into the loud hall.

            “We can grab our lunch and go anywhere you want,” she say s to me and I sigh. I really don’t want go to the cafeteria because my head hurts so much. Everyone does not only hate on my blindness, but also my relationship with Payton. Some comments are really mean towards me, while there are others that are horrible and just cruel about Payton. A few times I found myself really wanting to beat some people’s butts!

            “Payton all this noise has given me a bad head ache, can you just help me get to the football field and then come back get the food and come join me?” I ask seriously hoping she will agree with me.

            “Sure Reece, I totally understand,” she says as she begins leading me, towards the football field I guess and I use my cane to feel my way.

            A few minutes later the texture I am walking on changes and Payton stops me. It’s very quiet apart from the sound of the breeze whipping through. “Do you want to sit on the field or the bleachers?” my angel asks me with her sweet voice and I smile.