𝐒𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐌𝐞

𝑻𝒘𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒚-𝒕𝒘𝒐

"You rest in the arms of angels
In a place of peace and love
Watching over us
From the heavens up above
Always by our side
You not going away"

"The bond cannot be broken
Made from love so pure.
Death will not break the bond
It lives on for ever more.
You rest in the arms of angels
Free from illness and pain
Waiting for the day
We are together once again
Until we meet again dear friend"

I said my final goodbyes to Kai.

It was hard to believe that he was actually gone.

After my father's death.

I thought that would be the last hardest goodbye I would go through.

But I was wrong.

Kai meant a lot to me.

I blamed myself for choosing not to spend time with him. I could have stopped him.

I was heartbroken.

I didn't know who to turn to.

Donnel wasn't around.

Vee was at school.

Demir was probably already at school.

Liyan wasn't available.

I was all alone.

Dealing with the lost of a loved one.

"I'm so sorry for your loss Mr Mandez"I said to his mother

Kai had told me that his parents had gotten divorced a year ago.

His father was living in California with his new family.

It pained me because he couldn't even make it so his son's funeral.

His mother was all alone.

Left to deal with the pain of her son.

"Thank you sweetheart." She answered

I nodded

"I know my son loved you, this is your loss too. I'm so sorry."

"I loved him too." I said trying not to cry

"If you ever need anything at all please tell me." I told her

"I'll keep this in mind."she said and walked away

Heaven knows we had both lost someone important.

How was I suppose to carry on after this.

Wasn't my dad enough?

I asked myself.

After Kai.

I don't think I'll ever be happy again.

Even Demir couldn't mend me this time.

At I sat there in my room.
Holding the teddy from Kai.
I kept reading his letter.
It still had his scent.
Sweet and descent.
That was what I liked most about him.
He wasn't too much to know.
I only wished that he had told me what was going on with him.
I never realized that he was hurting to the point where he would actually take his life.

We could have made each hour,each minute ,each second count.