The Switch: Fara's Turn | On-Going

CHAPTER 19

"Last na 'to, Fara. Last na 'to," I mumbled while silently wishing na sana hindi ko siya makita ngayon. But yeah, I have to meet him so that I could deal with him and end this misery.

The destiny really wanted us to meet, dahil pagkakataon nga naman, makakasalubong ko siya dito sa field. Nakita kong napansin n'ya ako at alam kong papunta rin siya sa direksyon ko.

I sighed. Let's finish this fast. In fact, I kept thinking of my decision, whether to accept his offer or not.

If I accept it, I will just dug my grave more but at the same time I can act as if I really don't want to give him a chance. If he noticed that I'm getting bored with him and not interested at all, he might stop.

Likewise, if I refuse to the offer, he might think I'm just doing that because I'm avoiding him without any reason. Pero kailangan ko naman talaga siyang iwasan.

Kung tutuusin, p'wede ko namang sabihin nalang sa kanya ang totoo, just like how I inform Oli of my situation. Why am I being difficult? May madali naman talagang paraan.

But...what if mas mapahamak pa si Lara kapag sinabi ko ang totoo? I don't want to judge Hilton, but based on his personality, he might run his mouth to his friends. Who knows?

More importantly, I'm not really sure if he's being serious. He's a flirt, like me. So I kinda know how things might end up between us.

I admit it, what I felt for Hilton is different compared to my other flings. I'm attracted to him, but in a different way. Kahit ako, hindi na rin siguro sa nararamdaman ko.

"Lara!" I silently stopped. Yeah, Lara. It's Lara.

I breathe in and out. Let's do this!

"I've decided," I immediately announced.

He looked nervous but still remain silent as he waited for my response.

"I'll give you half day."

He was taken aback. "Huh? Didn't I ask for a day?"

"Yes, pero gusto ko half day. You have twelve hours then."

Ngumiti siya at napailing nang bahagya. "Alright. I'll take it. It's better than nothing."

Napatango tango ako. We'll set a date, right? It's a date, right? Ugh! Why do I act as if I was inexperienced with this stuff eh ako nga tong maraming naka-fling.

I mentally rolled my eyes.

"Let's have it on Sunday. Then, bye!"

"Ah, Lara. Wait–"

Hindi ko na siya pinatapos dahil nilayasan ko na siya agad. Sa totoo lang, sobrang kinakabahan ako. Feel ko sasabog dibdib ko anytime kung magtatagal pa ko roon. Plus, Lara has club activities right now, and I'm kinda late.

"Lara, hey." I felt a light grip on my arm, stopping me from walking.

"What?"

"You do know that I don't have your number, right? So how am I suppose to contact you?"

Ah! Right. But...no! I don't need to give my number to him. Let's just do meet up. After all, once this end, I will not be meeting him anymore. Well, hopefully.

I hurriedly instructed him to meet me at the coffee shop when he saw me with Oli. We agreed that we will meet at ten in the morning.

It's settled now.

"Here. Ayan yung mga pinag-usapan namin ni Oliver. Nagbigay na rin sya ng part na gagawin mo. But I can also help in making the paper"

I faced Lara. "Ugh! He's so diligent. Kung tutuusin, ang aga ng preparation nya para sa midterm paper."

"I also believe that the earlier, the better," she remarked.

"So, anything special with your day?" I asked her while laying on her bed.

"Not so much. I just talked with Sydney. Here's the topic..."

Lara started to fill me in with information. I exhaled deeply. Days quickly passed. Two days from now, it's Sunday. I kept on thinking if I am even doing the right thing.

What if...what if I just confessed the truth? Even though I know what to do, I just can't get myself to do it.

I really need to decide properly. Agh! Now, I'm so full of regret!