SINFUL AFFINITY (completed)

PT. 35

Hindi kaagad nalaman ni Hanz na dumating na pala si Elaine sa bahay nito. He went to pick up the flower that was being ignored all day at naging dugyot. Parang kinarayom ang puso niya nang hindi man lang nito pinansin ang bulaklak na ginisingan niya talaga ng maaga para maghanap at maibigay dito.

Pero may magbabago ba kung malaman nito na sa kanya ito galing?

Still nothing right? At dahil 'yun sa hindi sila maayos. They still have the conflict but both of them was restraining themselves from doing an action.

"Sandali!" He didn't expect for her to follow him tho. Kaya binilisan pa niya ang kilos at ng sa gano'n ay hindi siya nito magawang mamukhaan.

"Hanz!" just by hearing his name comes out from her mouth made him stopped so suddenly. Walang signal, at walang seremonya, basta ay napapahinto nalang siya nito na tila ba isa itong password sa padlock niya at ngayon ay nagsimula nang mabuksan?

Bumibilis ang tibok ng puso niya habang ramdam niya ang papalapit na papalapit na si Elaine. He should leave. He can't be here. Pero kahit gaano pa niya karaming beses na sinita ang sarili ay hindi pa rin siya tinutugon ng katawan niya. His heart was completely against with his brain.

"Ikaw 'yan hindi ba?" gumagaralgal ang boses nito ngunit pinipilit rin niyang pinagsasawalang bahala iyon. He doesn't want to worry at this time of his situation. It's not the suitable place to be worried.

"Why can't you answer me?!" She screamed in anger and pain. Raizen came close to her and pulled her in his arms.

"Enough, Elaine. Hindi ka sasagotin niyan because he's not the person you were looking for. That man who hurted you has nothing to do with you anymore. Mahal ka nga niya pero wala naman siyang magagawa para sa'yo kaya learn to let it go. Quit imagining and begin to move on." Raizen said trying to persuade her with his advice.

Elaine felt the million of threads that stabs her heart as of the moment. She can feel that this guy in front of her was Hanz. But why can't he show himself to her?

"Hi! I'm sorry for my girlfriend mistook you. Come on, Elaine." Raizen was about to indulge her to come with him when she did not move but say something to the stranger.

"If you are him or not, just don't mind my words that I will going to say." She swallowed hard before refraining the words she will going to deliver. "Kahit sinaktan mo pa ako ng paulit-ulit... gusto ko lang ipaalam sa'yo na ikaw pa rin ang nasa puso ko. Kahit sino ka man sa buhay ko, ikaw pa rin ang nagmamay-ari nito. Nasasaktan ako sa bawat araw na lumilipas kapag hindi man lang kita nakikita o masisilayan man lang. Wala ring araw na... hindi kita namimiss. Ganito ka rin ba sa'kin Hanz? Gusto kong malaman... Hanggang dito nalang ba talaga ta'yo? Wala na bang paraan para magkasama tayo ulit?" She doesn't want to cry for Raizen that's why she kept herself together and remained strong.

"Alam mo, wala ring oras na lumilipas kapag hindi ko naitatanong kung bakit naging pinsan pa kita, bakit sa lahat ng tao ay ikaw pa? Bakit sa lahat ng problema ay tayo pa? Hindi ba natin deserving ang magiging masaya? Naiinis ako, alam mo ba 'yun?! Other girls are free to like you, admire you and be with you at times. Pero ako na mahal mo, ni hindi man lang pwede na mahalin ka ng malaya. Nagseselos ako to the point na nasasaktan din ako sa huli. Sa isang buwan na hindi kita nararamdaman, I kept on asking... may halaga pa ba ako sa'yo? Importante pa ba ako sa'yo? Or kinalimutan mo na nga ba ako?" It was hard for her to keep going, moreover she doesn't want to stop. "If only I was born as another person, hinihiling ko na sana ako nalang si Skye. Kase kahit hindi mo pa siya mahal naging kayo pa. She was free to kissed you whenever and wherever she likes. Nagagawa niya ang gusto niya sa'yo pero sa'kin hindi! How I wished..."

Ngunit sa kalagitnaan ng paglabas niya ng mga hinaing niya, hindi niya pansin na umalis na pala ang estrangherong lalake. She smiled bitterly and held Raizen's hand tightly.