Torn in Two (Elite Girls 2)

Chapter 40 - Rupture

"Why are you so upset?" worried na tanong ko kay Dash.

He's been so quiet the whole week and each time I try to talk to him, he'd pretend he's busy. Alam ko namang marami siyang kailangang habulin sa studies niya pero kilala ko siya. Kahit na anong dami ng inaasikaso niya, inuuna niya pa rin ako. 

"Is this about that night when you saw me and Damian hugging? I'll explain everything, just talk to me..." I pleaded.

"What about it?" Bigla niyang sinarado ang iPad niya upang tingnan ako maigi. Nandito kami sa soccer bleachers dahil dito niya napagdesisyunan mag-review. There are no other students when I got here, only him. Muntik ko pa nga siyang hindi makita. Mabuti na lang ay tinuro siya sa akin ng isa sa mga kaibigan niya.

"Whatever you saw or heard, I want you to have an open mind. Please listen to me first."

He stared at me for a long time before he spoke. "Are you cheating on me with my brother?" diretsang tanong niya.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at agad umiling. "NO! Of course not! It's not like that! Walang ganun, Dashiell! I swear!"

"Then there's nothing to talk about. I trust you." Binuksan niya na ulit ang iPad niya at pinagpatuloy ang notes niya kaya naman kumunot ang noo ko.

Why won't he ask about it? Nung tinaasan niya ng boses si Damian ay hinila niya lang ako pabalik sa kuwarto niya, then he gave me a shirt and one of his boxers. Inabutan niya pa nga ako ng malinis na twalya at sinabihan akong maligo upang makatulog na kami. He was so calm but I knew that what he saw bothered him a lot.

Hinintay ko siyang magtanong but as days passes by, I realized he won't do it. He completely set aside the thought of interrogating me.

And as for Damian, ever since he learned about the letter, he changed. Kung dati rati ay kaibigan na lang ang turing niya sa akin, ngayon kung tumingin siya ay iba na talaga. He looks at me the way he does when we were in Paris. And sometimes, when our hands accidentally touches because he's handing me papers, it'll linger till I took a step back or pull my hand away.

I didn't like what he's doing. Bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko kahit na hindi naman dapat. Nakakalimutan ko ang mga tao sa paligid kahit alam kong mali ang nararamdaman ko.

Ano nga ba ang nararamdaman ko kay Damian? Bakit ako naaapektuhan maigi sa kanya?

What I do know is that it's Dash that I deeply love. If I don't love him, I won't get bothered by his actions. Pero hindi e. Hindi ako makapagisip ng maayos dahil sa mga inaasta niya. I just want my sweet clingy boyfriend back.

"Bakit ba ayaw mong makipagusap sa'kin? I can see that you have tons of questions in your mind and yet, you chose to stay silent. Are you doing this to torture me, huh?"

He sighed and gazed at me. "I asked you a question and you answered me. You said you're not cheating on me and I believe you. What else should we talk about? Iyon lang naman ang mahalaga."

"Don't you want to know why I cried? Aren't you even a little curious why I was there by the pool with Damian? And the hug? Do you not care about that?"

Gusto ko nang magtanong siya ng magtanong upang makaamin na ako! Gusto ko na sabihin sa kanya ang lahat!