Drunk in love

Part 40

why bite your lip so hard that you try to numb yourself with pain to avoid shedding tears again, that's a shame.

he thought that as long as he didn't say it, and song juhan didn't say it, he could take this secret to the grave after bidding farewell to song juhan, but in fact, he had always suspected deep in his heart, didn't song juhan really not know?

song juhan tapped his teeth with his thumb, caressed his soft lips, and then couldn't help but kiss it and said softly, "why don't you say it?" after so many years, why not say?

why did he only feel that every word that song juhan said was like a sharp knife piercing into his heart, and he trembled: "say? do you remember, when i went to question you six years ago, you laughed and said i couldn't afford to play. song juhan

frowned, "i was... i was young, and i didn't think you were real..."

"you didn't expect that someone who met two or three times and sing a song to hook up with a bed would really like you, right?" wwhy did he realize that in this world, no one would reveal his own scars more than him, he remembered every sentence and every detail of that year, he understood his own unbearableness, he understood song juhan's contempt, he understood everything, but he couldn't get out.

yes, at that time, song juhan was only 19 years old, and even cruelty was not very smooth to hide the age.

song juhan was silent for a moment: "at the beginning, my purpose of approaching you was indeed not pure, but over the years, you have become more and more important to me, and i am really not used to it without you." this was

the first time that song juhan had spoken softly, but he didn't feel half happy, only to feel that his cheeks were hot, as if they were all swollen. after so many years of companionship, it has finally played a little role, that is, habit. yes, song juhan is used to him being on call, obedient and patient -, and he is even used to such a life, he is even a little confused, leaving song juhan, the most painful thing is to lose what he loves, or to break the habit.

why did he say in a dumb voice: "sooner or later you will get used to it, now let go of me, let's go." "are

we still as bad as we used to be?" am i bad for you? song juhan was a little anxious, he was repeatedly rejected by why, he had turned from anger to panic, he did not think about why he would really want to leave him.

there is no longer any reason around? how does that work?! he couldn't imagine.

why did his heart hurt sharply, trembling and saying, "song juhan, do you know what you like?" song ju

was stunned and did not speak.

"like is... i don't know what liking is, but it's not like watching you sleep with someone else and not reacting. yyou make us still the same as before? why every word he said, it hurt, "you know me... i like you, and let me watch you hug you left and right as before? "in the past, he might be able to do it, but now he can't, since he knew that song juhan played him like that for feng zheng, he really couldn't do it."

he thought that knowing his "likes", song juhan would be somewhat touched, and sure enough, his "likes" were not worth anything to song juhan, and even could not arouse a few waves, and disappeared into the vast water.

"you want me to stop sleeping with others?" song ju looked at he with a cold and fixed look, "this is like?

he only felt the blood in his chest surging and he could hardly catch his breath, so he finally choked uncontrollably: "song juhan, do you have any heart?" song juhan

looked at why he was sad and aggrieved to the extreme, and his heart was faintly blocked.

he was indeed touched to hear that he was willing to risk jail time carrying such a black cauldron for him. there were too many people coming and going around him, but no one had ever done anything to him like this, saying nothing in his mouth, but willing to do anything for him, and no one like this, just looking, holding, or even just putting it around, could make him feel peace of mind.