Last I saw the bedsheets, crumpled on the floor
What use is a bed if I'm not sleeping anymore
I saw the light that left me
As I got traded in
There's always a new chapter
But you're not always in
I can't say that things will go back to what you wish they were
I can't say that they'll improve
If I can't see a future where I'm in the world with you
You're on your own as I have been
It's disastrous as all hells sin
This world has kicked me from it's place as it did when I was born
Ill willingly remove myself if you'll promise to mourn
Now I know that I don't deserve anything
And I know that I haven't been what you need
But just honor all of my suffering
And in ways, you'll indeed improve
I would have been much more to you as I should have been to me
But difficulties arrive when you hate just everything
I know you don't and I know you care
Even when you scream and cut your hair
I was here and I've been there
But I cut me down and set a flame
I made a promise and chipped away
I wanted to keep everything
I got my way and it's off for the spring
I gave way to everything and the world crumbles beneath my feet
I'm seething mad, I'm so very sad
Ive been good and I've been bad
I've been happy, momentarily
I am far from ordinary
But I sully the ground, only daily
A failure in it's wake
My heart aches and my bones suffer rot
I kill things when I have not
I forget and forgive only to myself
Willing to try but unable to help
You can love the thought but go rid yourself
A bottle that's quite top shelf
But poison all the same
I'm not good for most the time
I love the things that I help die
Won't you go flourish where I could not
Make sure to cherish what you have got
I love you still a whole awful lot
But my loves still as in stillborn
But just make sure that you still mourn
Maybe learn to love yourself
