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X. Gone

Days passed by.
Joseph told me that you were in pain for a couple of weeks. I asked him to look after you.
"Lost, sad, and angry."
Three words he used to describe your state.
I hope you can forgive me one day.

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Jinyoung left the palace this morning as I told him. Every time I think about how he looked down at you I get angry, I can't be in the same room with him.

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Did you know that once you taste human blood everything else tastes different?
I started to drink sheep blood again.
It tastes awful. It feels just like sand in my mouth, most of the time I throw up
but I need to get used to it.

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I heard you are doing better. You're working at the orphanage where you were raised.
The kids love you deeply.
Since winter can be harsh
I donate clothes and food every year,
anonymously of course.

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I wish I could sleep.
Maybe that way I would be able to forget our past.
I thought that pushing you away from me everything would be the best for both of us, but my heart is aching and I don't understand why.

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Joseph told me you left your hometown. He doesn't know where did you go. All he knew is that you are looking for something. I hope you can find it.

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I never heard from you again. Joseph tried to find you but it was impossible.
I hope you're doing well.
I hope you live your best life.
I hope you find someone
who values and loves you.
I hope you're happy.

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Hundred years have passed. The world changes fast but the sadness and heartache of losing loved ones are still the same. Everyone around me passed away and I thought maybe you did too.

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I knew it since I saw you the first time I had a special feeling about you. I can't afford to love someone with a short life that's why
I did everything I could to protect you
but maybe even that wasn't enough. I ask for your forgiveness every night
can you hear me?
Maybe just maybe someday, somehow...

We will meet again.
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