"Hi. I miss you guys. I miss the talks, I miss the countless amount of jokes, fake insults and all our fun times. I miss our group walks. I wish I could have been there sooner. I could have saved you. I am sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
You won't have kids, you didn't get married all you guys' plans didn't happen. And for that I'm sorry. Yes, I blame myself who else is there to blame? I wish you were here and it wasn't this way. I wish we got a chance to find your parents Cole. I wish I could hug you again Nichola. I love you guys and I regret not saying it before I left that day. I hope you hear it now though." I said my tears betraying me. I placed the flowers at the grave and walked away, and left the others to say what they wanted.I sat in the car and placed my sunnies on to hide my red eyes.
Eventually, a crying Akari entered my car and I drove off.
We entered the house and I felt heads whipped in my direction, but I payed it no attention. I wasn't feeling it.
"Principessa, we were a- are you okay?" Dad said.
"Akari?" Mom said hugging him. He hugged back and I was so grateful she did hug him.
"Mhm." I said pursing my lips together.
Dimitri approached me and gave me a hug and then took off the sunnies.
"Why're you crying?" He asked softly.
"Today, is a hard day for me." I said
"Excuse me." I said walking to my kitchen and grabbing the nearest bottle of Chivas Regal.
I walked out the kitchen and I went into the elevator pressing the button for the studio.
I felt heavy, everything crashing on me. From the day I was taken in the hellhole to the day we escaped to the events leading up to the escape, to the day that they died and so much more.
I cracked open the bottle before taking a swig. The liqour burned as I gulped. I knew I couldn't get drunk but that didn't mean I couldn't try nor that I didn't want to be drunk. Because right now I really did.
I switched on the led lights to red and purple before switching on the power to the equiptment.
I placed the headphones on before pressing play on the control board, after trimming and editing the beat.
I made my way into the recording booth and placed the mic at my height.
Say you're there when I feel helpless. If that's true, why don't you help me?
It's my fault, I know I'm selfish
Stand alone, my soul is jealous
It wants love, but I reject it
Trade my joy for my protectionAll the times that I couldn't understand love, the meaning, the point. Until my friends showed me. Before that I constantly rejected them but they didn't give up on me.
As the song progressed I sang.
Grab my hand, I'm drowning
I feel my heart pounding
Why haven't you found me yet?
I hold you so proudly
Traumas, they surround me
I wish you'd just love me back.
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The Lost Daughter- A Mafia Princess
Teen FictionThe Lost Mafia Princess Alyssa has gone through pain and torture. But it has made her who she is. Known in the underworld as the best assassin 'Death Princess' and unbeknown, the Australian Mafia Donna. In the business world she is the youngest tri...
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