I Wish I Never Woke Up (Sandro Marcos FF)

Ep. 73: An Escape for HER

[ANNE'S POV]

11PM IN THE EVENING;

I woke up at 12 in the midnight beside my boyfriend Simon. I thought i was already in heaven looking at this beautiful angel infront of me. He's pretty handsome even he's sleeping and snoring. Can't believe that this will be the last day for now that i will see his angelic face. I'm planning to leave this house, for temporary only. I want to take time and find the real version of me again. The mature Christelle Anne Cabansag. Not the "isip bata" and "kalog" one. And of course, the Christelle that Simon loved. Maybe somewhere far away here from Ilocos? When i say far away, i'm not talking just around philippines. I want to go to other country. USA i guess? I think it's just okay for me to leave this house dahil wala naman akong maiiwan aside from Simon. We have no kids naman, we're not even married yet. And i don't think may plan pa si Simon for that. Anyway, i wrote a letter saying goodbye to my love of my life and place it under our lampshade while he's still sleeping. I get up and quickly prepare my clothes and things without taking a bath. I got emotional for the last moment before i leave the room. I looked at Simon sleeping. I will miss this man. And this is the letter that i've wrote to him and to his family.

"Tita Liza, tito Bong, tito Jerome, tita Shekinah, Sandro, Janna, Jeremiah, Vinny, baby Cheska and baby Jerico, my favorite inaanak Alexander, and to the love of my life Simon.. Please forgive me. Forgive me for leaving this house without your notice. I personally don't want to be a burden in this family anymore. I just want to escape the reality wherein there's an existing Anne in this world. But she's different. So i decided to find the real Anne, THE REAL ME. It was so hard for me to leave you all but please understand my situation. To Janna, i'm very sorry sa nagawa ko sayo. I hope when i come back, everything will be fine to us. To my boyfriend Simon, please don't follow me somewhere babe. I need to find peace and acceptance on myself. I think this time, i am already in a flight going to somewhere in the world. But don't worry, I'LL COMEBACK, I PROMISE. Maybe not now, but soon! I maybe far away from all of you but trust me, you all are always here in my heart. And please always remember that i love you all so much.. Especially you, Simon, you know that. I love you.."

-Anne

Matagal na akong nagpa book ng flight ko to NYC. Past 12 midnight na ako nakaalis ng bahay nila tita Liza dahil ngayon lang ako nag prepare ng gamit ko for my flight. 8AM pa ang flight ko pero dederecho na muna ako sa family ko in Baguio para magpaalam sakanila and doon na rin ako sasakay dahil sa Loakan Airport ako nagpa book ng flight para maihatid ako ni papa. Mag bubus nga lang pala ko from Ilocos to Baguio. It is so frustrating traveling alone. What more pa sa flight ko later na mahigit isang araw, huhu.

-TIME SKIP-

📍BAGUIO CITY

I'm finally here in my parents. Nakwento ko na sakanila lahat and yes, they forgive me naman kahit na medyo nagulat sila. My mom cried lol it makes me hard to leave even more. Saglit lang ako nag stay dito kasi magpapaalam lang naman talaga ako. We just had breakfast together with my siblings and enjoying their last moment with me.

"Mag iingat ka, anak." Mama told me emotionally.

I comforted her, "Ma naman. Sabi ko sainyo wag kayong umiyak eh. Mahihirapan akong umalis nyan sige ka."

She continued sniffing, "Eh kasi naman! Ang tagal tagal mong wala samin tapos bigla bigla ka nalang mang gugulat na aalis kana pala."

"Ma, babalik naman ho ako." I replied calmly.

"Pangako mo, anak ha?" Papa suddenly spoke from behind.

I turn around and smiled at him, "Oo naman po. Babalik ako, pangako."