My haunting past

Chapter 24-Relapse

I stayed outside in the pouring rain as he opened the door. Jaden appeared at the door looking confused

"Lexie, what are you doing here?" He asked looking at my appearance. I was drenched from the rain.

"Do you have the beach house keys?" I asked as I pushed my wet hair back

"It's midnight, what are you doing here? Are you okay?" He asked shooting different questions at me. The question 'are you okay' broke me. I couldn't control the sobs that were let out

"Lexie, what's wrong?" He softened his look

"Keys please" I said through the tears, wiping them away. He sighed and started walking away and coming back with the keys

"Here" he said

"Thank you" I replied. I grabbed the keys and sprinted to my car before he could say anything else. Once I got back to my car, I drove quickly to the beach house and pulled into the driveway. I unlocked the house and put my bags down. I open my bag and pull out the bags and syringes and a fresh pair of clothes. I changed into them and grabbed the other items and went outside. I stayed under the cabana looking out to the water

The weather represents my life right now, a shit show that I never thought would happen.

I look down at the vials and bags of pills, where did my life go wrong. I never wanted to be in this situation again, I told myself I would be strong again and not go back to this but it seems like this is the only thing in my life that doesn't leave me

I grabbed the syringe and the vial, inserting the needle into the vial. I pulled the syringe back making sure I didn't get any air bubbles. I was in my own bubble now, alone with no one to help me, no one to stop me.

But the bubble popped when I heard yelling coming from behind me

"Lexie what the hell" Jaden exclaimed seeing him wet alongside with him is Ryan. They look shocked, even mad.

"What are you doing here?" I asked

"You came to the house at midnight, crying, you don't think I wouldn't notice" Jaden started walking towards me.

"Just leave me alone" I said

"No, you're going to relapse, I am not leaving you like this. Why are you doing this?" He questioned

"You won't understand" I mumbled looking down to the needle.

"Make us understand than" Ryan yelled

"I have lost everything in my life, my kids hate me and don't want to speak to me, Stefan is back and is trying to take the mafia back and I am being forced into retirement. Everything is going downhill and I don't want to feel like this." I yelled, throwing my hands out in frustration

"Lexie" Ryan approached me and giving me a hug. I let myself fall in his arms, crying on his shoulder

"I don't want to do this anymore" I cried

"It's okay, you don't have to." Ryan hugged not letting me go

"I don't want to feel like this anymore, I don't want to go through this" I said

"I know you don't but drugs won't help you." He replied

"It would help a bit" I said

"It will relief temporary pain but it will always come back. We will get rid of this pain together but not this way" He said pulling me back and giving me a sympathetic look

"Okay" I replied. I saw that Jaden now has the drugs and away from me.

"I have one more thing to tell you" I wiped my tears, sniffling my nose.