Jenga ( Harry Styles )

Time

Time ... everything revolves around time . I know one thing we NEVER appreciate time.

Do we take a few seconds to look at others needs instead of ours ? NO

Time is so precious that we 'd give anything to turn back time or build a time machine .

Time can feel like ages or it will pass in a blink of an eye . Please appreciate TIME .

As the saying goes TIME AND TIDE WAITS FOR NO MAN .... / ONLY TIME WILL TELL

To me time took its time to play around .....

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Looking back at the last text I received from Harry .. I just ...I .. I'm lost for words . He took this matter literally .

They say don't ever choose to date a guy who asks you to be his girlfriend through the phone because you wouldn't be able tell if he likes you sincerely or he is just using you .

True !

From : Harry

Are you okay baby ?

To : Harry

Yeah I'm fine .

From : Harry

You seem really cold and distant .

To : Harry

Nah , I'm fine .. I'm still hungover

From : Harry

Next time , you need to eat before you get wasted . Number 1 rule of drinking .

To : Harry

Yeah ..

From : Harry

Baby , I gotta go I'll text you later at night . Bye baby I love you .

To : Harry

:)

It's not what you think it is ......

I do not have feelings for him . I'm just playing along because I do not want to hurt him .

My head is just 30 seconds from exploding , my heart is pounding really hard begging to rip out of my body and my palms are getting sweaty .

To be honest this is how I feel .....

I want to pack my things and leave . I just turned 18 and this happens . I don't even like him and yet here i am forced to compromise my happiness for the good of others . I want to tell him but it will make me a hypocrite .

It will make me sound like a hypocrite because at one time he had his heart broken I comforted him and told him to choose the right girl who won't break your heart . That just makes me feel awful because I'm going to break his heart ... urggghhh .

I toss and turned in bed contemplating on whether I should tell him or not . It's not easy .. you can't just say ..

Hey , please don't hate me it was just a game

I feel stupid using you .. it was a joke

I don't like you .. I was force to play it

Everybody plays this kind of game

I should have said NO but ... but ...

It's so hard .......

Even if I wanted to try this so called relationship I couldn't because I surely wasn't hung up on a certain guy . His name is Luke Hemmings .